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yeah so retreat was pretty amazing. i had a lot of fun, and it was good to see all those people again, i forgot how fun those can be... it put a lot of things into place, about my friends, my problems, my life. i realized that im not as alone as i thought i was.
but i also realized some other things.. like its amazing how the person who appears to be happiest on the outside can be that one person whos just dying on the inside, and that you shouldnt judge anybody, because you never know what they are going through. and i realized i really need to be more open with my feelings. like even when me ashley and ally were sharing all of our feelings with each other i couldnt say everything that inside i wanted to and i dont know why. and i was just standing there and i wanted to cry but i couldnt. and its weird because the second i got home i just sat down in my office and started crying. it was weird, i dont know what thats about.
and i also feel like i was a pretty bad friend for a while, i kind of pushed my friends away and stopped listening to all of their problems, mostly for my own selfish reasons. but i just wanted to say that im sorry. so to all my friends thanks for always listening to me, and always being able to make me smile, even when i want to cry, i appreciate it so much more then you know.
and to stephy i miss you and i wanna talk to you, and to ashley congrats with those marshmellows even if they are stale theyre still great lol. and to ally and kimbo thanks for making this a great weekend and im sorry if i ever made you guys feel left out.
and eric i love you, and i missed u a lot this weekend, soo many memories lol. even tho i dont think you can read this but thats okay i still love you a ton.
well im gonna go take a nap
and ill put my millions of pictures on here later lol
xoxo
LeA
but i also realized some other things.. like its amazing how the person who appears to be happiest on the outside can be that one person whos just dying on the inside, and that you shouldnt judge anybody, because you never know what they are going through. and i realized i really need to be more open with my feelings. like even when me ashley and ally were sharing all of our feelings with each other i couldnt say everything that inside i wanted to and i dont know why. and i was just standing there and i wanted to cry but i couldnt. and its weird because the second i got home i just sat down in my office and started crying. it was weird, i dont know what thats about.
and i also feel like i was a pretty bad friend for a while, i kind of pushed my friends away and stopped listening to all of their problems, mostly for my own selfish reasons. but i just wanted to say that im sorry. so to all my friends thanks for always listening to me, and always being able to make me smile, even when i want to cry, i appreciate it so much more then you know.
and to stephy i miss you and i wanna talk to you, and to ashley congrats with those marshmellows even if they are stale theyre still great lol. and to ally and kimbo thanks for making this a great weekend and im sorry if i ever made you guys feel left out.
and eric i love you, and i missed u a lot this weekend, soo many memories lol. even tho i dont think you can read this but thats okay i still love you a ton.
well im gonna go take a nap
and ill put my millions of pictures on here later lol
xoxo
LeA