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I stayed home from school today and got to go see baby Elijah at the DHS building. They still won't let any of us have him. He has got to be the prettiest baby i have ever seen, and i just want to take him and hide him under my shart and run out of the biulding. Would that look conspicuous at all? I'm thinking so.
Anyways. I'm really down lately. For reason i dont know. My mom keeps asking me if i am depressed and all this shit, and im actually starting to think i am because i have constant mood changes and i sleep waaaayy too much. Ugh. I just want to beat everyone up. And seeing this beautiful baby today, knowing that he was born addicted to meth and stands no chance at a normal life right now, does not help my mood at all. I do not understand how someone can know that they are pregnant and deliberately take drugs and endanger their baby. I dont understand it. My mom talked to Elijahs case worker today for like, an hour and cleared up some questions about day care and health insurance for a foster child and stuff that my dad was worried about so now maybe he will let us get him. I hope so. I really want to have that baby near me so i can know he's safe. But his foster Mom seems like a nice lady. She's been taking care of his half sister since she was two months old. Which is saying a lot because shes like two and a half now. The lady already has three kids of her own. She doesnt need to have to take care of Bobby's kid too. Bobby's daughter calls the foster mom 'Mommy' and bobby got all upset about it. I'm just like, what do you expect? Shes basically been her mom since she was tiny. Get over it. But yeah, i hope we get him. I wont mind sharing my room with him. Lord knows its big enough. I just cant sit by and watch him grow up in the system. I cant.
I've been feeling really alone lately. I think its because i dont have a boyfriend, but thats a pretty damn pathetic excuse to feel that way. But oh well. Fuck you if you think im pathetic. Okay, well i think this is a long enough update for you all. Until the next time im at my grandmas. So long. ♥Anna
Anyways. I'm really down lately. For reason i dont know. My mom keeps asking me if i am depressed and all this shit, and im actually starting to think i am because i have constant mood changes and i sleep waaaayy too much. Ugh. I just want to beat everyone up. And seeing this beautiful baby today, knowing that he was born addicted to meth and stands no chance at a normal life right now, does not help my mood at all. I do not understand how someone can know that they are pregnant and deliberately take drugs and endanger their baby. I dont understand it. My mom talked to Elijahs case worker today for like, an hour and cleared up some questions about day care and health insurance for a foster child and stuff that my dad was worried about so now maybe he will let us get him. I hope so. I really want to have that baby near me so i can know he's safe. But his foster Mom seems like a nice lady. She's been taking care of his half sister since she was two months old. Which is saying a lot because shes like two and a half now. The lady already has three kids of her own. She doesnt need to have to take care of Bobby's kid too. Bobby's daughter calls the foster mom 'Mommy' and bobby got all upset about it. I'm just like, what do you expect? Shes basically been her mom since she was tiny. Get over it. But yeah, i hope we get him. I wont mind sharing my room with him. Lord knows its big enough. I just cant sit by and watch him grow up in the system. I cant.
I've been feeling really alone lately. I think its because i dont have a boyfriend, but thats a pretty damn pathetic excuse to feel that way. But oh well. Fuck you if you think im pathetic. Okay, well i think this is a long enough update for you all. Until the next time im at my grandmas. So long. ♥Anna