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[secretsorcerer]

I cannot believe Christmas is coming on so soon. I took a walk last night, and all the shops have put up those tiny colourful lights, and snow in the windows and pictures of that "Santa" man I learned of last year. It's all very nice to look at, and I'm excited

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Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

All is well as can be expected Merlin. That is to say, I'm huge, my feet are sore, and without the alterations you made, I wouldn't fit into my clothes.

Thank you, though.

How is everything with you?

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

I am glad to hear that. Em, not about you being huge or sore, but that you're doing alright otherwise. Anyway, you still look lovely.

Don't mention it.

Everything is fine. Rather good, actually.

Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

Thank you for being so kind, Merlin. Even if it's not true.

Rather good? Did something particular happen?

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

You are welcome, and it is too.

Oh, I don't know. It's just been a good sort of few weeks, you know?

Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

A good few weeks?

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

Yes. Things have just felt... right. I long for home, but in the meantime... life is good here.

Do you not often feel the same?

Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

I do feel quite the same. As much as I miss Camelot, a lot of things would not be allowed in Camelot.

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

Yes, my lady, I believe I understand you perfectly on this point.

Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

I thought you would.

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

Though I have been assured I shouldn't worry... sometimes it frightens me to think of what may have to change once we do go home. We cannot stay here forever, and I wouldn't want to- our duty is to Camelot. Still, I often find myself thinking... it would be so easy to stay. We could all be happy, not have to worry about why we shouldn't... be doing the things we are. But at the same time, I know it isn't true. Arthur can never be truly happy without Camelot. It will always have a part of his heart that I will never be able to replace. I couldn't do that to him, however much it may hurt to... see the inevitable unfold once he's king.

Look at me. I started this conversation going on about how happy I've been, and somehow I've turned it all melancholy. Forgive me, my lady.

Re: Morgana

[notjusta_ward]

Uther is the same way. I do not know that he would be happy without Camelot to rule over. But my biggest problem with the possibility of going back would be my children. I do not know how they would be taken there. I do not know how I would be taken should we return. I miss Gwen and Gaius. I do, but I do not know that my children would be allowed to return with me.

I know that they have not been born yet, but something tells me that I won't be able to easily leave them be.

There is nothing to be forgiven, Merlin. Nothing at all.

Morgana

[secretsorcerer]

Of course something tells you that. It doesn't make a difference that they haven't been born yet- they are your children, you are their mother. You love them instinctively. It just proves that you will be a wonderful parent. Don't worry. When we find a way back, we will find a way back with your children. I promise. We will not be returning without them.

I don't think I ever properly thanked you, by the way. For naming me a godfather. I don't know if I can ever say how honoured I am.

Merlin

[notjusta_ward]

Thank you, Merlin. For, I do not know that I would be able to return without them.

There's no need to thank me. I couldn't imagine anyone better to be one of the godparents.