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So as i head of to McGill ive had a few hours of carride to think...
No, im not ending my lj since once school starts up ill have random thoughts and stories to post just like usual. and im not going to delete and start over because whats here is here and i dont think its worth losing it. now that thats out of the way...
school will be good. actually im sure it will be amazing. time to branch out, make to friends, do new things, persue dreams. I'm going to miss everyone but in a good way. in the, my friends have affected me and helped me in so many ways that im never going to forget them, but not seeing them everyday is gonna be a bit rough. cell phone and internet will help ease that :)
this summer has been amazing. it was just what jane and i wanted it to be. fun, insane, spontaneous, twisted, lovely and full. so much happened, so much changed. i worked hard. very hard. and then i got to play hard. i travelled, i lived alone, i saw my family, i flirted, i got egged, i stayed sober but went to parties, i didnt smoke but i lit the pipe for my friends, i lived my life the way i wanted to... in my comfort zone but still fun. still with the possiblity of breaking some of my rules, still fun. and thats what mattered, the fun. i saw the people i love. my friends. the ones that make me sane while making me crazy, the ones that make me crazy by being so sane. it all just seemed to fit together. and overall, maybe this summer wasnt that different from other summers, but there was soemthing about it that made it feel very complete. like i didnt miss out. it rounded out 4 years of hopkins in a very satisfying way.
have only two regrets. and though they are regrets they still made the summer that much better. i regret how things ended up with connor. thats the simplest way to put it. i dont even know exactly what i wanted or what i expected, but i didnt expect this and i know that this isnt what i wanted. maybe it has helped me, im sure it has. and it hasnt broken me or anything but its sad and there is a great sense of loss that is gonna stick around for awhile i know. but i also know that things happen for a reason and its all okay. and i had FUN anyway.
my other regret is much less serious >.< i 'regret' that i never got a chance to follow thru on the skinny dipping offers from lyle and this other kid i know. becuase it would have been so much fun. and its not so much regret as cursing the weather and the time frame. im just saying........ cuz there was no future with either boy, but a random fun night would have done me some good. alas ill just have to remember the fun that did happen :)
and so off to montreal it is... the car is packed, everything is ready and tomorrow morning at 8am ill leave burlington vt and head north. get there around 10am and move in... and i am excited and ready. the icon says it...."here goes...'
email: emilie.waters@mail.mcgill.ca
cell #: (203) 494-8246
love to everyone and ill keep in touch :)
em
No, im not ending my lj since once school starts up ill have random thoughts and stories to post just like usual. and im not going to delete and start over because whats here is here and i dont think its worth losing it. now that thats out of the way...
school will be good. actually im sure it will be amazing. time to branch out, make to friends, do new things, persue dreams. I'm going to miss everyone but in a good way. in the, my friends have affected me and helped me in so many ways that im never going to forget them, but not seeing them everyday is gonna be a bit rough. cell phone and internet will help ease that :)
this summer has been amazing. it was just what jane and i wanted it to be. fun, insane, spontaneous, twisted, lovely and full. so much happened, so much changed. i worked hard. very hard. and then i got to play hard. i travelled, i lived alone, i saw my family, i flirted, i got egged, i stayed sober but went to parties, i didnt smoke but i lit the pipe for my friends, i lived my life the way i wanted to... in my comfort zone but still fun. still with the possiblity of breaking some of my rules, still fun. and thats what mattered, the fun. i saw the people i love. my friends. the ones that make me sane while making me crazy, the ones that make me crazy by being so sane. it all just seemed to fit together. and overall, maybe this summer wasnt that different from other summers, but there was soemthing about it that made it feel very complete. like i didnt miss out. it rounded out 4 years of hopkins in a very satisfying way.
have only two regrets. and though they are regrets they still made the summer that much better. i regret how things ended up with connor. thats the simplest way to put it. i dont even know exactly what i wanted or what i expected, but i didnt expect this and i know that this isnt what i wanted. maybe it has helped me, im sure it has. and it hasnt broken me or anything but its sad and there is a great sense of loss that is gonna stick around for awhile i know. but i also know that things happen for a reason and its all okay. and i had FUN anyway.
my other regret is much less serious >.< i 'regret' that i never got a chance to follow thru on the skinny dipping offers from lyle and this other kid i know. becuase it would have been so much fun. and its not so much regret as cursing the weather and the time frame. im just saying........ cuz there was no future with either boy, but a random fun night would have done me some good. alas ill just have to remember the fun that did happen :)
and so off to montreal it is... the car is packed, everything is ready and tomorrow morning at 8am ill leave burlington vt and head north. get there around 10am and move in... and i am excited and ready. the icon says it...."here goes...'
email: emilie.waters@mail.mcgill.ca
cell #: (203) 494-8246
love to everyone and ill keep in touch :)
em