So far you only dared me once and I think we know that's not even close enough.
I had a whole heck of a lot to say in this thing yesterday but, it had to be lame and die.
The beginning of this week was okay. But .. it affected the rest of the week, if that's possible.
well, it is possible because that's what happend. If I knew it was going to be like this I definately would have made a different decision.
I can't even talk about it to anyone? hah. I don't want to. Anyways, I just feel confused/retarded. hah.
It seems like eveeerytime I'm happy something happens that makes me twice as unhappy?
or maybe it just effects me like that because its a dramatic change? I don't know.
But, everything is not bad. Only some things. It makes me feel better to talk about the bad things, to like let them out?
time out from the sadness.
Megan is the coolest girl in the world for calling me so I could hear Jesse!! :* I adoooreee you.<3
I'm thinking I'm about to make this friends only again
because.. I don't know. I'm thinkin I'm gonna use this thing to vent a lot more.
hahaha. Being angry about it just doesn't seem to help things. obviously ;)
tonight, I went bowling. I am a professional. Only not.
starting this week, I'm making a changeeeee, Its not a safe one?? BUT, I'm gonna do it. cause, I just don't care as of riiight now.
thatsss it. :*
The beginning of this week was okay. But .. it affected the rest of the week, if that's possible.
well, it is possible because that's what happend. If I knew it was going to be like this I definately would have made a different decision.
I can't even talk about it to anyone? hah. I don't want to. Anyways, I just feel confused/retarded. hah.
It seems like eveeerytime I'm happy something happens that makes me twice as unhappy?
or maybe it just effects me like that because its a dramatic change? I don't know.
But, everything is not bad. Only some things. It makes me feel better to talk about the bad things, to like let them out?
time out from the sadness.
Megan is the coolest girl in the world for calling me so I could hear Jesse!! :* I adoooreee you.<3
I'm thinking I'm about to make this friends only again
because.. I don't know. I'm thinkin I'm gonna use this thing to vent a lot more.
hahaha. Being angry about it just doesn't seem to help things. obviously ;)
tonight, I went bowling. I am a professional. Only not.
starting this week, I'm making a changeeeee, Its not a safe one?? BUT, I'm gonna do it. cause, I just don't care as of riiight now.
thatsss it. :*