not feeling myself...
ok so thursday meg and i went down to see my friend steve at drexel and i didnt mean to pay more attention to megan but i winded up doing that and now i think my friend steve hates me and i never thought he could ever hate someone. hes such a sweet guy and i feel horrible for what i did. if only i could take it back. i always screw up friendships. ugh why am i so stupid? i asked him if he wanted to hang out tuesday since im free and i dont start school til thursday...i just dont know why i did what i did...so tomorrow im supposed to be going snowboarding. i asked krista last saturday to work for me so i could go. now im a girl that would do ne thing for a friend instead of doing it for myself. i never request off from work i never call out and i was so excited that i was finally doing something for myself. well today there was like this snowstorm and now we mite not be going. i mind as well just request off all the time for no reason and sit at home playing with myself. its ridiculous. really, it is. i didnt get to go last year cuz i worked too much and now this year the snow is going to stop me. im just so let down...yesterday i spent the day with john and loved every moment of it. i truly do love him. we went out to dinner then came home and then he took me to go see munich which wasnt too bad and then he took me to his house and i winded up sleeping over and boy did he please me :D this morning i woke up at 11 went to get my hair cut and then came home and got ready for work. while i was in work i was just thinking about how much i missed him. i feel pathetic. i guess i better go to bed cuz im tired and hopefully i get to get up early to go snowboarding. ttfn