kinda feeling a little better...
ok so i messed up all the dates leigh anns mardi gras vaca is feb 27th to march 2nd and i called her today and thats how we decided maybe i can go down for mardi gras. i hope i can i really do cuz things are so different down there and i miss her and i dunno i just hope things work out. if i am able to go hopefully i can go from feb 24th til march 1st this way i can hang out with her too. i woke up this morning feeling like complete shit cuz john stayed out too late last nite and didnt want to get up to go out with me this morning so that idea was shit. then i never got up to go to the gym and i winded waking up at 10 took a shower and then he called me and said he didnt wanna go ne more. i started thinking about how disgustingly fat i am and if i get to see leigh ann in a month and a half i need to bust my ass to loose weight. i was just about to cut but for some reason i didnt and then when i started to think about leigh ann and visiting her my mind was changed. so i guess im grateful! i dont wanna go to work again today i think thats part of my reason of why i feel so depressed. ive been working 13 days straight and i really just want a day to myself. tomorrow is my first day off i cant wait and hopefully im going to lunch with megan. then friday john is supposedly rescheduling with me cuz i have off friday too. i get paid tomorrow and my paycheck should be like 850$ from overtime and what not so maybe just maybe ill see like 600 of that. i dunno well im gonna go finish getting ready for work. hopefully today will go by quickly! ttfn