(no subject)
florida was amazing. the weather was perfect.
neil's gone :( but atleast everything is perfect with us again. he comes home to visit in january. then after that he'll probably only be gone for another month.. hopefully. then he comes home for a little while then he goes to iraq for 6 months then comes home for about 2 weeks then goes back to iraq for another 6 months. but atleast its not like all at once. im happy i get to see him every now and then. but i just have to stay positive and keep thinking that eventually all of this will be over and he will be home forever.
kiersten i miss you more than fucking anything.
harbor's fucking slow. she was supposed to be here like 15 minutes ago. or maybe im just extremely impatient.
im kind of stressed about christmas. i have no money and i need to buy so many people gifts. plus neil isnt going to be here for christmas so that is just going to make me even more stressed. hes not going to be here for new years eve either. which basically means that my new years is going to suck. my mom only trusts me out until like 3 when im with neil. nobody else. FUCK. my last new years fucking sucked too because neil was only 17 so he was able to be grounded. his dad found a bowl in his room.
i dont want to go to school on monday. i fucking hate school. i used to not mind it at all, like in the beginning of the year, but now i really hate it. oh well. i cant wait till christmas break.
hopefully things will get better after christmas. maybe all the presents will make me feel better :)
neil's gone :( but atleast everything is perfect with us again. he comes home to visit in january. then after that he'll probably only be gone for another month.. hopefully. then he comes home for a little while then he goes to iraq for 6 months then comes home for about 2 weeks then goes back to iraq for another 6 months. but atleast its not like all at once. im happy i get to see him every now and then. but i just have to stay positive and keep thinking that eventually all of this will be over and he will be home forever.
kiersten i miss you more than fucking anything.
harbor's fucking slow. she was supposed to be here like 15 minutes ago. or maybe im just extremely impatient.
im kind of stressed about christmas. i have no money and i need to buy so many people gifts. plus neil isnt going to be here for christmas so that is just going to make me even more stressed. hes not going to be here for new years eve either. which basically means that my new years is going to suck. my mom only trusts me out until like 3 when im with neil. nobody else. FUCK. my last new years fucking sucked too because neil was only 17 so he was able to be grounded. his dad found a bowl in his room.
i dont want to go to school on monday. i fucking hate school. i used to not mind it at all, like in the beginning of the year, but now i really hate it. oh well. i cant wait till christmas break.
hopefully things will get better after christmas. maybe all the presents will make me feel better :)