Jiahui
I am really upset, it seems like i can't even make my best friend happy. i don't have the money to bring her to a good dinner on her birthday, i don't have enough to open a bottle for her to enjoy, i don't have the capabilities to teach her right from wrong, i don't have an attitude that she can put up with sometimes, i don't have the patience to wait up for her to come home before i get to sleep when i used to stay at her place, i don't have the kind of time i used to have for her, i don't have so many things a best friend should be able to offer. I feel like a shit friend yet she still loves me so much, she still makes every possible effort into keeping this friendship alive. im always so touched by her actions of love and concern, she told me she cried upon thinking the day i might leave her behind in this world alone. you don't know babe, how much all these means to me, you don't know how much i love you.
im so sorry about the times we quarreled so bad, im so sorry about the times i kicked up a fuss about the clothes and shoes we agreed to share, im so sorry i made you feel so stupid whenever you talk to me about relationships. im so sorry im always getting angry at you for making mistakes you knew would happen and not helping you learn instead. im so sorry you became scared of my temper and started to hide certain things from me (but you'd still tell me in the end), im so sorry you always have to listen to what i want and give in to me. im so sorry i am such a lazy person that i have to ask you to help me cook help me take stuff help me do shit, and you always did for my sake.
im so sorry i always didnt follow you to powerhouse. im so sorry we didnt manage to go to USS, but we will soon, ok??
thank you for being everything to me, i am so happy i have this connection with you. you gave me hope whenever i was down, you help me through money and family issues, love and friendship matters as well. although sometimes you talk nonsense all your crap was able to lift me up. you put me up at your place for 11 months and through that time i enjoyed watching hk dramas with you, eating leftover food at home, snatching the computer, bathing with you, crying together when we listened to permanent by david cook like 4354738 times on repeat. i am super grateful the countless of times you stood up for me when i had shit with your maid.
remember when we used to go home together on bus 28 and 67? remember we'd get so excited whenever we get to see our 6th floor neighbour? remember all the times you lied on my bed and snatch my blanket away because you hated the fan blowing right at you? remember the times we were so sian and we ran out of ciggs we'd walk all the way to 85 just to buy ciggs and walk back in the middle of the night? remember how you hated it when i stared at the wardrobe for around half an hour just thinking what to wear and ill change my clothes at least 3 times before i left the house? remember we promised to get a coffin big enough to fit us both and melissa so that we wont ever be apart in the afterlife? oh and also remember how you like to nag at me to go see a doctor whenever im unwell but being the stubborn me will say no?
theres so many other sweet stuff you did for me i wanna thank you about and remind you about because you have a brain the size of a pea you cannot remember so many things but nevermind i know you wont ever forget me can already. :>
anyhow, i know it's not your birthday yet, but since i can't blog by 2nd may 12 am i'm posting it up now. i love you and i hope you'd have a happy birthday. if 2012 rly happens we must be together all the time in that year k so if we die we die together! since you're already 19, be wiser k dear, & be my best friend forever. :D
you'd say, "me like you."
and i'd say back, "me like you more."
im so sorry about the times we quarreled so bad, im so sorry about the times i kicked up a fuss about the clothes and shoes we agreed to share, im so sorry i made you feel so stupid whenever you talk to me about relationships. im so sorry im always getting angry at you for making mistakes you knew would happen and not helping you learn instead. im so sorry you became scared of my temper and started to hide certain things from me (but you'd still tell me in the end), im so sorry you always have to listen to what i want and give in to me. im so sorry i am such a lazy person that i have to ask you to help me cook help me take stuff help me do shit, and you always did for my sake.
im so sorry i always didnt follow you to powerhouse. im so sorry we didnt manage to go to USS, but we will soon, ok??
thank you for being everything to me, i am so happy i have this connection with you. you gave me hope whenever i was down, you help me through money and family issues, love and friendship matters as well. although sometimes you talk nonsense all your crap was able to lift me up. you put me up at your place for 11 months and through that time i enjoyed watching hk dramas with you, eating leftover food at home, snatching the computer, bathing with you, crying together when we listened to permanent by david cook like 4354738 times on repeat. i am super grateful the countless of times you stood up for me when i had shit with your maid.
remember when we used to go home together on bus 28 and 67? remember we'd get so excited whenever we get to see our 6th floor neighbour? remember all the times you lied on my bed and snatch my blanket away because you hated the fan blowing right at you? remember the times we were so sian and we ran out of ciggs we'd walk all the way to 85 just to buy ciggs and walk back in the middle of the night? remember how you hated it when i stared at the wardrobe for around half an hour just thinking what to wear and ill change my clothes at least 3 times before i left the house? remember we promised to get a coffin big enough to fit us both and melissa so that we wont ever be apart in the afterlife? oh and also remember how you like to nag at me to go see a doctor whenever im unwell but being the stubborn me will say no?
theres so many other sweet stuff you did for me i wanna thank you about and remind you about because you have a brain the size of a pea you cannot remember so many things but nevermind i know you wont ever forget me can already. :>
anyhow, i know it's not your birthday yet, but since i can't blog by 2nd may 12 am i'm posting it up now. i love you and i hope you'd have a happy birthday. if 2012 rly happens we must be together all the time in that year k so if we die we die together! since you're already 19, be wiser k dear, & be my best friend forever. :D
you'd say, "me like you."
and i'd say back, "me like you more."