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well last night i very much felt like updating about everything just to get it out of my head, but today i dont really feel like typing much but ill get it all out anyways......
this past week has just been so stressful..rachel said that i was not myself at alllll last week and i guess it was jsut because of stress and lack of sleep. well, i died my hair thursday and it turned out BRIGHT red..like WHOA. so i went to walmart at 11 to try and find something to lighten it, all it did was burn my head, and do nothing to help at all...so i was in tears that night and freaking out, but david texted me and i was happy that he is FINALLY talking to me. i hate awkward situations like those we've been having...it just sucked..hopefully it wont be awkward anymore, but whatever....so im used to my hair now and i like it so yay. ummm friday was prom, which was sooo much fun and it was just totally awesome so yay again. and then sat me and rachel slept in a veryyyy long time.....so that made me feel sooo much better. and then we went to aurora's party. well DRAMA as always....something was going on with rachel...i got to talk to Tim for a little bit though which was very nice...i like talking to him....and found out some stuff i just disliked. later, talking to rachel, i found out some more things. she was at the breaking point sat, becuz of bottled up emotions, which i know is bad cuz i used to do the same thing...so i talked to her, and we worked it all out...however..i was VERY angry at the fact that someone told her that she was trying to "follow in my shadow". too bad she didnt know who said it cuz they were gonna get their ass kicked.....i was so very angry becuz thats not the way it is at all. Well also, in addition to that i feel like im losing a friend very close to me. i dont know why but its been on my mind since saturday. Me and tony had a LONG talk today in weight training as we "jump roped" outside....lol.....but yeah....ive come to the conclusion that the people in our group are shallow...that the people up here are shallow...most of them anyways. i couldnt believe some of the things that are going on...and im just tired of people lying and being fake within the group. dont get me wrong they are TOTALLY awesome people...but in a way i cant wait to move on from all the fakeness and drama. i also feel soooo kicked out..especiall this morning..its just wierd...i feel so unwelcome their now, and like i dont fit in with the girls especially, so i end up talking to ryan, or chase, or amanda, or brooke, or alyssa....its just wierd now....and i wish that rachel would come back to franklin soon...but i know that thats only gonna cause more people to say shit about us behind our backs. again with the fake friends...but oh well...im done for now, rachel called, so im off to chat with her about this stuff....seems like everywhere ya go there's always drama and fake friends..oh no more bad news..sounds like fun. :)