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i am at a loss. I have been forced to realize, that even if you have committed the same sins as someone else, you might just get the brunt of the punishment. Maybe its easier to blame me and be angry with me. its so sad, i thought our friendship at least meant a phone call to you.
also, i hope you dont hurt my best friend, because... you are the most undeserving piece of shit asshole if you do. not to mention stupid. really fucking stupid.
graduation was today. it was a hellacious experience. pointless, the speaker was terrible, she actually called UCF: USF twice. I nearly didnt go in... after i nearly had a nervous breakdown outside. at least jon was there to make it better, make me sane again. formal was good, the best part was the pool beforehand.
I dont feel different, being graduated. I do know that everything is changing. Ive lost a good friend, over nothing. wondering if im about to lose another one. and hoping that not every single thing in my life has to change. im not good with even a little bit of change. I have a feeling there is going to be a lot of drinking and crying and laughing and writing people off and letting go this summer. maybe its just what we all needed.
maybe we were never that close to begin with? maybe I imagined it. maybe all some people need is their immediate family and everyone else was just helping them bide their time. I have to remind myself that i dont need friends who dont need me.
gnight.
also, i hope you dont hurt my best friend, because... you are the most undeserving piece of shit asshole if you do. not to mention stupid. really fucking stupid.
graduation was today. it was a hellacious experience. pointless, the speaker was terrible, she actually called UCF: USF twice. I nearly didnt go in... after i nearly had a nervous breakdown outside. at least jon was there to make it better, make me sane again. formal was good, the best part was the pool beforehand.
I dont feel different, being graduated. I do know that everything is changing. Ive lost a good friend, over nothing. wondering if im about to lose another one. and hoping that not every single thing in my life has to change. im not good with even a little bit of change. I have a feeling there is going to be a lot of drinking and crying and laughing and writing people off and letting go this summer. maybe its just what we all needed.
maybe we were never that close to begin with? maybe I imagined it. maybe all some people need is their immediate family and everyone else was just helping them bide their time. I have to remind myself that i dont need friends who dont need me.
gnight.