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I made a random visit to Value Village today and got a 'perfect' turtle T-shirt. I love it so much. (I find a mild obsession with turtles.) I have decided, now that it is more financially possible, to make more frequent trips to Value Village and other thrift stores. (I also got some rad old school Christian music videos...Awesome! So cheesy, so nostalgic.)
Oh another note, I finally talked to my best guy bud about this liking him thing that I've had going on for the past 6 months (no not the guy I wrote about on February 11..the one from December 3!) It was good to talk to him, and as I assumed, the feelings were not reciprocated. It actually feels good to have the friendship back w/o the expectations. But now I feel so silly and stupid and just frustrated at myself. The whole idea seems dumb to me now. You know that "What was I thinking?!?" kinda feeling. And he said he knew the whole time. He's known since September. He was hurt that I wasn't upfront with him before. What bothers me the most is that I hurt him because I tried so hard not too...that's why I didn't tell him before. I didn't want to stress him out. I wanted to be unselfish. But I realized I am not a good judge of what is best for others. So, I try to focus on the good parts of this thing, and that both I and he learned something from it. And now, at least, we got this out of the way so our friendship can be smooth sailing from here on in.
The best thing is, I feel like I've put another childish fantasy behind me. Forget this "like you silently until you return the favor" thing. No. As hopelessly romantic as that sounds, it is very illogical. And I'm past that.
Indeed, I must go thrift store shopping more often.
Oh another note, I finally talked to my best guy bud about this liking him thing that I've had going on for the past 6 months (no not the guy I wrote about on February 11..the one from December 3!) It was good to talk to him, and as I assumed, the feelings were not reciprocated. It actually feels good to have the friendship back w/o the expectations. But now I feel so silly and stupid and just frustrated at myself. The whole idea seems dumb to me now. You know that "What was I thinking?!?" kinda feeling. And he said he knew the whole time. He's known since September. He was hurt that I wasn't upfront with him before. What bothers me the most is that I hurt him because I tried so hard not too...that's why I didn't tell him before. I didn't want to stress him out. I wanted to be unselfish. But I realized I am not a good judge of what is best for others. So, I try to focus on the good parts of this thing, and that both I and he learned something from it. And now, at least, we got this out of the way so our friendship can be smooth sailing from here on in.
The best thing is, I feel like I've put another childish fantasy behind me. Forget this "like you silently until you return the favor" thing. No. As hopelessly romantic as that sounds, it is very illogical. And I'm past that.
Indeed, I must go thrift store shopping more often.