"I want much more than this provincial life"
(So, I'm debating whether or not to post this thought that I've been putting together for the past 6 hours...but...whatever! As a precurser...I'm largely being facetious and snarky cuz it's a mask when I don't know what else to do...)
Yet again, I find myself looking for life's answers in Disney fairytale movies. Perhaps, somewhere, in one of them, my love-life story is predicted....yada yada blah blah...
It used to be The Little Mermaid: "Far better than any dream (boy) is one warm and caring and right before your eyes". But Eric got his dream girl in the end anyway! What's the real moral of the story here!?! Besides, he falls in love with a girl who can't even talk! What kind-of passive, submissive, pathetic wife would THAT be?!?
So I'm much more inclined now to Belle:
"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere! I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand to have someone understand; I want so much more than they've got planned." Sigh.
And because she actually LEARNS to love him. It's not just some love-at-first-sight infatuation bull. it's the real thing. Unexpected and unlike the stereotypical love of this simplistic world.
A wildflower. Unrecognized beauty.
In the midst of my bitterness, my heart weeps. I have given up on my dream boy. But, in a way, it feels so good to not be tied down by an ideal anymore. Yet, I can't help but think that I've given up something worth waiting for. My 26 year-old self is already looking at things differently.
Yet again, I find myself looking for life's answers in Disney fairytale movies. Perhaps, somewhere, in one of them, my love-life story is predicted....yada yada blah blah...
It used to be The Little Mermaid: "Far better than any dream (boy) is one warm and caring and right before your eyes". But Eric got his dream girl in the end anyway! What's the real moral of the story here!?! Besides, he falls in love with a girl who can't even talk! What kind-of passive, submissive, pathetic wife would THAT be?!?
So I'm much more inclined now to Belle:
"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere! I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand to have someone understand; I want so much more than they've got planned." Sigh.
And because she actually LEARNS to love him. It's not just some love-at-first-sight infatuation bull. it's the real thing. Unexpected and unlike the stereotypical love of this simplistic world.
A wildflower. Unrecognized beauty.
In the midst of my bitterness, my heart weeps. I have given up on my dream boy. But, in a way, it feels so good to not be tied down by an ideal anymore. Yet, I can't help but think that I've given up something worth waiting for. My 26 year-old self is already looking at things differently.