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FUCK practicality. its been the death of my emotions
and feelings and the person i used to feel i was as a
free being and crazy and spontaneous. my life has been
over ridden with work and responsibilities and chores
and duties and shit like that and its sucked the
forceful emotion out of all of my actions, where's my
passion? i dont know... but i have passion for you! i
do, i LOVE YOU! like God! its so insane that because
of all these factors happening around me i cant at any
given moment burst into an emotion and tell you
something like that. what happend to me "getting a
feeling" in one second and acting upon it by shaving my head
and dying it in one night, driving an hour just to see someone
at 4 in the morning or making applesauce sandwhiches
and strawberry smoothies and talking to you all night? the world is on
lithium... i dont know. i DONT KNOW!!! what happend to
SHOUTING@!!!?! now i have to take into account so many
other things first. so many other people. its so
restricting and restraining.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
i need to jump around outside and feel the air and
breathe and cry and scream and hit and run...what do i
think is worth fighting for? i think your sanity is
fucking worth fighting for, and peace of mind about
your life, being ok with NOT KNOWING the future!!!!
relaxing because you know youll keep on living and
those who are important to you will keep on loving you
and meaning the world to you no matter what! ( I will
KEEP ON LOVING YOU! and you MEAN SO MUCH to ME!!!)
in the Ideas of moulin rouge, and "the revolution"
LOVE, BEAUTY, and TRUTH are WORTH fighting for. they
ARE! to have a sense of your place in the world is
worth fighting for. your own sanity and happiness is
worth fighting for, WHATEVER that comes with or
entails...
i love you....
and feelings and the person i used to feel i was as a
free being and crazy and spontaneous. my life has been
over ridden with work and responsibilities and chores
and duties and shit like that and its sucked the
forceful emotion out of all of my actions, where's my
passion? i dont know... but i have passion for you! i
do, i LOVE YOU! like God! its so insane that because
of all these factors happening around me i cant at any
given moment burst into an emotion and tell you
something like that. what happend to me "getting a
feeling" in one second and acting upon it by shaving my head
and dying it in one night, driving an hour just to see someone
at 4 in the morning or making applesauce sandwhiches
and strawberry smoothies and talking to you all night? the world is on
lithium... i dont know. i DONT KNOW!!! what happend to
SHOUTING@!!!?! now i have to take into account so many
other things first. so many other people. its so
restricting and restraining.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
i need to jump around outside and feel the air and
breathe and cry and scream and hit and run...what do i
think is worth fighting for? i think your sanity is
fucking worth fighting for, and peace of mind about
your life, being ok with NOT KNOWING the future!!!!
relaxing because you know youll keep on living and
those who are important to you will keep on loving you
and meaning the world to you no matter what! ( I will
KEEP ON LOVING YOU! and you MEAN SO MUCH to ME!!!)
in the Ideas of moulin rouge, and "the revolution"
LOVE, BEAUTY, and TRUTH are WORTH fighting for. they
ARE! to have a sense of your place in the world is
worth fighting for. your own sanity and happiness is
worth fighting for, WHATEVER that comes with or
entails...
i love you....