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I'm beginning to lose faith and hope in myself.
I feel like I'm becoming a failure. In no ones eyes but my own.
I can't even explain the way I feel lately but I'm just over it all. I just want to be in control of my life and I feel like I'm never going to get there. It's killing me and it's tearing my heart apart right now. I feel like I can't even breathe without someone being on my back. I look at myself and see a person who has done nothing with themselves and I hate it. I feel like Im becoming the person I never thought I would be and It's so hard. I just want to be truely happy and I don't even know what it would take to get me there. I hate it so much right now. I just don't understand whats going on. I don't want to be a disappointment. That's all.
I feel like I'm becoming a failure. In no ones eyes but my own.
I can't even explain the way I feel lately but I'm just over it all. I just want to be in control of my life and I feel like I'm never going to get there. It's killing me and it's tearing my heart apart right now. I feel like I can't even breathe without someone being on my back. I look at myself and see a person who has done nothing with themselves and I hate it. I feel like Im becoming the person I never thought I would be and It's so hard. I just want to be truely happy and I don't even know what it would take to get me there. I hate it so much right now. I just don't understand whats going on. I don't want to be a disappointment. That's all.