Remeber me?
I'm alive! It's been something like two years since I've posted here. Since then, a lot has happened. Remember Steph? Read previous posts. As I imagined, as soon as I came out to her she gave me the cold shoulder.
Wow. I mean, this from the girl that pulled me behind closed doors to make out with me. The girl who'd tell me how horny I made her. The girl who had slyly played with my clit in a taxi cab on the way to a bar downtown. The girl who held my fucking hand and stroked my hair in a restaurant on campus. Fucking bullshit.
Also, a year ago I broke with the ltr boyfriend - of seven goddamned years. Six years too long if you ask me. Yet while I imagined myself breaking up with him because I had found a lovely girl I was interested in, I actually ended up in another relationship with a guy... who is WONDERFUL and not scared of my bisexuality. Thank god the flying spaghetti monster. He gets so hard when I talk about my previous escapades. I think I should arrange myself with a girl if he's ok with it.
In other newssss! A girl I knew in first year (five years ago! Oh my) has stepped back into my life. We'll call her N. She's so gorgeous and I've had a huge crush on her since I first met her. She disappeared from the face of the planet a little while ago - turns out she spent half a year backpacking around India (*jealousy faint*). I have no idea if she's gay/straight/etc. A few months ago I was manning a table for a club I run on campus speaking with people who were interested and she stopped by and started speaking to the club rep beside me - she didn't recognize me (lost 15 lbs, cut bangs into my hair, wearing more make up etc.). I looked up and saw it was her - my heart did a backflip and my stomach immediately sprouted butterflies. "N!!!" - she turned to me. She was so surprised and happy to see me...and kept telling me how beautiful I looked...
And she's repeated that a few times now. I have yet to meet up with her for coffee and I reckon I will be a heavy flirt when we do.
Oh my god.
Seriously? It's like this theme in my life recycles itself ever 6 months. Girl in relationship with guy, girl really really really wants to fuck girl. Gahh!!!
I'm insane, I know it.
Wow. I mean, this from the girl that pulled me behind closed doors to make out with me. The girl who'd tell me how horny I made her. The girl who had slyly played with my clit in a taxi cab on the way to a bar downtown. The girl who held my fucking hand and stroked my hair in a restaurant on campus. Fucking bullshit.
Also, a year ago I broke with the ltr boyfriend - of seven goddamned years. Six years too long if you ask me. Yet while I imagined myself breaking up with him because I had found a lovely girl I was interested in, I actually ended up in another relationship with a guy... who is WONDERFUL and not scared of my bisexuality. Thank god the flying spaghetti monster. He gets so hard when I talk about my previous escapades. I think I should arrange myself with a girl if he's ok with it.
In other newssss! A girl I knew in first year (five years ago! Oh my) has stepped back into my life. We'll call her N. She's so gorgeous and I've had a huge crush on her since I first met her. She disappeared from the face of the planet a little while ago - turns out she spent half a year backpacking around India (*jealousy faint*). I have no idea if she's gay/straight/etc. A few months ago I was manning a table for a club I run on campus speaking with people who were interested and she stopped by and started speaking to the club rep beside me - she didn't recognize me (lost 15 lbs, cut bangs into my hair, wearing more make up etc.). I looked up and saw it was her - my heart did a backflip and my stomach immediately sprouted butterflies. "N!!!" - she turned to me. She was so surprised and happy to see me...and kept telling me how beautiful I looked...
And she's repeated that a few times now. I have yet to meet up with her for coffee and I reckon I will be a heavy flirt when we do.
Oh my god.
Seriously? It's like this theme in my life recycles itself ever 6 months. Girl in relationship with guy, girl really really really wants to fuck girl. Gahh!!!
I'm insane, I know it.