I'm so stressed.
I really need to drive.
I'm so stressed out. My dad is starting his new job at Home Depot this weekend. CRAP... What if I can't go to my lesson? It's the one right BEFORE REGIONALS!!! I NEED TO GO TO THAT!!!!! I need to. I need to make regionals. I want it so bad. I worked so damn hard since September. And he might be working that Saturday of regionals. What if I have to take the bus down there and I miss my audition!? What will I do!? Oh my god.
And I can't pay the extra five dollars every week for piano lessons. I need to be able to drive to her house. I can't afford to pay $20 every week for music lessons. I can pay $15. But I'm not getting enough work to continue this cycle. I can't pay every week.
I have to drive to Habitat. It's so far away. And so's the district office. I can't have my mom drive me there.
In order to make PSG, I need to practice my horn EVERYDAY. I can't do that if I need to walk. I can't take it home everyday. It's impossible to carry. I can't do that every day. There are no horns for me to just leave at home, either. I need to keep taking lessons to get into PSG. I'm not good enough to compete with others in PSG yet. GOD DAMN IT.
I need to be able to drive to band next year. I need to drive to Jazz Band this year. I have places to go. I can't depend on my dad anymore. I need to go places. And I have to wait a few more weeks to even consider getting my license because I have only driven the freeways twice. I can't back out of crowded parking lots because I don't want to hit a car. I haven't been to a gas station since the day I hit the side of the car. I'm so screwed. And the worst part is that I am too busy to focus on driving. I need my license to bad, but no one ever pushed me to get it. I won't even have a CAR!
It like wouldn't even matter. I'm so stressed over this. I need to be able to do this stuff for scholarships. I can't pay for this all by myself. I need to get a real job to help do that. But I can't if I can't drive anywhere. Holy crap.
I'm so stressed out. My dad is starting his new job at Home Depot this weekend. CRAP... What if I can't go to my lesson? It's the one right BEFORE REGIONALS!!! I NEED TO GO TO THAT!!!!! I need to. I need to make regionals. I want it so bad. I worked so damn hard since September. And he might be working that Saturday of regionals. What if I have to take the bus down there and I miss my audition!? What will I do!? Oh my god.
And I can't pay the extra five dollars every week for piano lessons. I need to be able to drive to her house. I can't afford to pay $20 every week for music lessons. I can pay $15. But I'm not getting enough work to continue this cycle. I can't pay every week.
I have to drive to Habitat. It's so far away. And so's the district office. I can't have my mom drive me there.
In order to make PSG, I need to practice my horn EVERYDAY. I can't do that if I need to walk. I can't take it home everyday. It's impossible to carry. I can't do that every day. There are no horns for me to just leave at home, either. I need to keep taking lessons to get into PSG. I'm not good enough to compete with others in PSG yet. GOD DAMN IT.
I need to be able to drive to band next year. I need to drive to Jazz Band this year. I have places to go. I can't depend on my dad anymore. I need to go places. And I have to wait a few more weeks to even consider getting my license because I have only driven the freeways twice. I can't back out of crowded parking lots because I don't want to hit a car. I haven't been to a gas station since the day I hit the side of the car. I'm so screwed. And the worst part is that I am too busy to focus on driving. I need my license to bad, but no one ever pushed me to get it. I won't even have a CAR!
It like wouldn't even matter. I'm so stressed over this. I need to be able to do this stuff for scholarships. I can't pay for this all by myself. I need to get a real job to help do that. But I can't if I can't drive anywhere. Holy crap.