and your red sky at night won't follow me
I am an absolute piece of shit. Engage self-loathing spiral.
Someday things will be normal again. I just wish I knew when "someday" was, or how to get there faster. I used to just sleep the days away when they ended up being like this, but I don't have that convenience any more. I'll just keep myself busy until I finally break down again, and then I'll just mosey on over the hump and into another pit of despair with all its spooky noises and prickly things.
I can't wait for 2010. The odd numbered years always end up being just outright painful overall. There's been some beautiful times this year...some of the best times in fact...but the pain is just outweighing all the warm memories in my heart right now.
My God I'm sorry I've gone and ruined everything.
Someday things will be normal again. I just wish I knew when "someday" was, or how to get there faster. I used to just sleep the days away when they ended up being like this, but I don't have that convenience any more. I'll just keep myself busy until I finally break down again, and then I'll just mosey on over the hump and into another pit of despair with all its spooky noises and prickly things.
I can't wait for 2010. The odd numbered years always end up being just outright painful overall. There's been some beautiful times this year...some of the best times in fact...but the pain is just outweighing all the warm memories in my heart right now.
My God I'm sorry I've gone and ruined everything.