Jun 27, 2001 21:41
In other news, today was an okay-maybe-better-than-average day - school hours whizzing past and getting to go home earlier than usual. Not much has been happening in school recently, and it's not like I could care less either. Some complications among the group of girls I call my "friends", but none of them directly affecting me. Fiona and Crystal asked me to hang out with them after school, but I didn't go. For a moment I was thinking, maybe I should go with them. Yes, no, yes, no. School was almost over and they wanted to be on time to catch the afternoon's showing of Tomb Raider. There wasn't time to debate the issue. I said no. I would almost have given in to the part of me that kept saying, You have to go, you never do. But I didn't, because eventually, it's all about what I wanted to do, and I didn't want to be spending any time with them. Don't get me wrong. They're nice girls, but not exactly great company. I always feel this way about my friends. It's like we're on a different plane, and I can't connect with them. Sure, we get on well, but that is about all our friendship amounts to. We don't have to many similar interests, and we don't think about the same things. I don't know about you, but I can't devote my time to people that are, in reality, so much different from me.
There is also something I have started to notice recently. There is this boy in school, who stares at me whenever I'm around. I don't know him, but I'm quite sure he's a senior. He is of average height(for a boy), 5'10" or somewhere around there, and skinny. He's also quite cute. I'm not going to do anything about it of course, because it's not like I feel anything towards him. In some ways this is quite flattering, but I don't like people staring at me. It makes me uncomfortable.