"They're just afraid to change.."

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You would think that someone trying to sabotage a close friendship of mine would make me angry. It's the normal response, isn't it? Or that it would make me disappointed in the person who I had tried to help, who wanted to be friends... but no, i'm really not angry at all. i'm not sad, i'm not disappointed, i'm not mad, i'm not really anything

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Tbh, Sarah, I can't help but feel that they ARE bad. It's been so deceitful, trying to lure me into thinking they are my friend, just so they can get something to use against me. It's very ugly.

You're completely right with everything you said - i completely agree - but, this person (who is who you think it is) should know better by now. I know, I sound impatient and not very understanding, but we've all got to grow up and face reality and I have made more excuses for them than anyone else has. So, for me, it is the ultimate... stupidity? That sounds harsh, but I can't think how else to put it.

Also, I really don't care about me in all of this. Well, minutely. What really bugs me is to act like this to someone you profess to want, need, cherish and love. It goes against my feelings towards what love is.
I'm waffling now. Or just sounding like i'm bitching. I'm just protective of my friend and feel he deserves better.

Thank you for your kindness. The worst part is just not knowing what is gonna come next. It's like, what rabbit is gonna be pulled out of the hat now?

Thank you, again. I love you for knowing me and for knowing that I might make mistakes, i might be a douche at times, but i never mean to hurt anyone... unlike some.

Btw, Amanda really likes you a lot. We've so get together.

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* so got to get together. jeez. lol