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so somewhat talked to kristen who knows how things are going to go now. tryed to figure something out and then got yelled at for it. I'm sorry but i just wanted to figure it out for my knowledge. got yelled at and then was told that its all my fault and that i need to say that i'm sorry... but you know what i'm not sorry.... i tired of people knowing me as the push over... i'm done with that. I'm not sorry for what i did and i just want to go home. i want to spend time with my cats and my dogs and my friends and my parents. I miss them so much... we can't do a whole lot for a long time bc amber gets tired... understandable she is pregnet... but still... I thought this was going to be so much different. i thought that it was going to be lots of fun like the whole time and no one would be bored but thats not how its going.... i would really just like to go talk to all of my friends that are at home. like i feel really rude going out to my car to talk but i just hate sitting here talking on my phone infront of them and i feel as though its rude to do that as well.... ok i just need to calm down. sit back and look at things. oh well.... we leave for disneyland tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. ok i think that i'm going to go do something with kristen but who knows how that is going to go... she might be on the phone the whole time with her boyfriend... maybe i should go drive by myself.... i want a hug from my mom and from amanda and katie and people who want to be around me.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............ i think that this whole me moving thing is finally sinking in.... i will be home every weekend.... ok need to go so i don't cry.... later