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everytime i watch this movie
i feel what he feels
where hes comeing from
im like him but not as
...proud?
i dont kno the word
but when its all said and done
i wish i had someone to call my own
someone right by my side
someone i can watch something like this
call up and reasure my self
that hes still here for me
and that im not alone in the worl
like the movie makes me feel
it puts it all so clear
what can happen
like they say...
you never mean to hurt anyone
but you do
i guess i dont play the feild fair
i talk to someone
then jus cut everything lose
like it was nothing
as they are still tryin to hold on

theres only one person i think of when
i watch this movie
he has a girlfriend
and that makes it all that
much mor real
when i talk to someone
and then its done
cuz i break it off
and then i see them talkin,going out
with someone else
i realize how much i liked them
after the fact of things
i guess i put my self out there
to make me miss them
and hurt in the end
not like them though
no
theirs are all on the heart
mine... mine is all on memorie
when i look bak to them
i remember how good i had it
them... they knew right then and there
while it was happening
i guess i make my self seem
more up there then i really am
my mind is aiming to high
for my heart to follow
i guess im not as special
as i thought i would be
and i honestly need that
kind of reasurance daily.
but. i kno i dont have it
and i wont for a while
....i guess it all works out
for the best...

i guess