It's raining, it's pouring
Day two
So I'd better hurry up and post before the battery on my laptop dies. The power just went out as I was sitting comfortably on the couch. It's kinda nice actually, especially as it is raining as well. I love the sound of rain. Sometimes I imagine the raindrops are my tears - I crave that release. Soon I will lie in my bed with the window open so I can feel the cool moist breaze on my face. I'll try and stay awake and I will think about the day. In the darkness I will feel too. There will be no blocking out my feelings, they won't be numbed by distractions either.
Today was a strange sort of day. We had a meeting this morning at work which was somewhat awkward. Mainly because Michelle seemed to be in a grumpy mood. She has been quite a bit lately. So at the meeting she announced that we had a choice to either hire the girl we trialled last week for my job or we could make the move to Centro. After some frustrated explaining to Marcus who didn't quite grasp the concept at first and wanted to argue that we get another journalist, it was decided that we opt for the Centro option. Michelle and I rang P.O then to confirm and he will get back to us about the when and how. He did say however that he thought it would be sooner rather than later so that may mean I may soon be able to leave the SBT and head for the Coast and my new job. It has been a frustrating wait. I guess I will have to keep waiting though.
I am somewhat apprehensive about moving - I think for the most part it is the fear of being lonely because I won't have friends. Also I don't want to move in with Anne and Kevin. He is always awkward with me (I don't think he likes me very much) and I don't think living with Anne would be good for my already low self esteem. Especially as I feel like I am the disappointing cousin in the family... to be living with my aunt and uncle I just don't think would be good for me.
Ideally I would like to find my own unit that I didnt' have to share and I would have space but the problem is money and being able to afford it. What I pay in rent here for a month would be just enough to cover a week and a half's rent at the coast.
I guess I should try not to worry about it all now. Things will work out as time goes on... I hope.
I had better go. I will attempt taking my medication, washing my face and cleaning my teeth in the dark before stumbling into my room. But first I've got to make it from the lounge to the bathroom. Wish me luck.
But before I go, here is today's 365 photo:
