i am the tower around which you orbited, i am not proud i am just taking orders
oh man do i have shit to update about
aight, so i found out alex had sex with john and then john got a girlfriend, maggie. ugh
so i had sex with jeremy, probably a bad move but i wanted him to give me drugs and stuff and i was so upset with alex and john. then john told me he broke up with maggie, which he didnt and had sex with me, wtf. i shouldnt have let him, im not sure what i should have done. "im sorry for what i did, i did what my body told me to, i didnt mean to do you harm, everytime i pin down what i think want it slips away." story of my life. so im out of the program. im gonna miss everyone but all the boys there kept hittin on me and touching me and it made me super upset so im glad im outta that situation because im too passive to stick up for myself in stuff like that >.< i suck. i went back to school for a few days and entered the poetry slam, im excited about that. and i saw robbie and he seemed happy to see me so that felt good. everyone seemed happy to see me. i met lots of bi girls in the program. i asked this girl katelynn to come with me to the prom via myspace because im too much of a pussy to ask her in person, ugh im soo anxious for her reply i reallly hope she says yes, shes so hott i want her to be my girl lol. ahh shes sooo awsome. ive been sober for 5 days and im ruinin it tonight >.< i suck lol. i feel bad because everyone is rooting for me and everyones been so proud of me and im hardly even trying and im just screwin it all up after all the help and effort everyones been giving to me. im a terrible person. i just wanna get high and forget everything forever. at least, thats how i feel sometimes. other times i like knowing whats going on and not walking around in a cloud of confusion. my mom keeps asking me about the "guy" im asking to prom, how do i tell her its a girl?? shes not gonna get it, i hope she doesnt flip. im pissed band practice didnt work out today, bitchez need to get they act together. oh well, it better work out next week, eh fuck it all. maybe someday everything will be fine, even if its just for a day.
aight, so i found out alex had sex with john and then john got a girlfriend, maggie. ugh
so i had sex with jeremy, probably a bad move but i wanted him to give me drugs and stuff and i was so upset with alex and john. then john told me he broke up with maggie, which he didnt and had sex with me, wtf. i shouldnt have let him, im not sure what i should have done. "im sorry for what i did, i did what my body told me to, i didnt mean to do you harm, everytime i pin down what i think want it slips away." story of my life. so im out of the program. im gonna miss everyone but all the boys there kept hittin on me and touching me and it made me super upset so im glad im outta that situation because im too passive to stick up for myself in stuff like that >.< i suck. i went back to school for a few days and entered the poetry slam, im excited about that. and i saw robbie and he seemed happy to see me so that felt good. everyone seemed happy to see me. i met lots of bi girls in the program. i asked this girl katelynn to come with me to the prom via myspace because im too much of a pussy to ask her in person, ugh im soo anxious for her reply i reallly hope she says yes, shes so hott i want her to be my girl lol. ahh shes sooo awsome. ive been sober for 5 days and im ruinin it tonight >.< i suck lol. i feel bad because everyone is rooting for me and everyones been so proud of me and im hardly even trying and im just screwin it all up after all the help and effort everyones been giving to me. im a terrible person. i just wanna get high and forget everything forever. at least, thats how i feel sometimes. other times i like knowing whats going on and not walking around in a cloud of confusion. my mom keeps asking me about the "guy" im asking to prom, how do i tell her its a girl?? shes not gonna get it, i hope she doesnt flip. im pissed band practice didnt work out today, bitchez need to get they act together. oh well, it better work out next week, eh fuck it all. maybe someday everything will be fine, even if its just for a day.