So, anyways.
I just feel wrong. I can't explain it much past that, but I do. I hate life, and I hate the way things turn out. I quit my job last week, put in notice and this week will be the end of my working at APAC. I mostly have been making it to classes recently- not to-day though. Didn't have my math work done, so I decided not to do it, and just to
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Well, as you can read (and count) more than 2 people read this to the entirety. And more than one person really does care. Anything typed past a "Sorry, man" is a caring response.
While I do condone the medication route...I don't think it should be for everyone. The only person who knows you is YOU, thus your feelings about medication clearly show you are going to rely on yourself to feel happier more often. I know people who thank everything in their lives to medication. I also know people who are more screwed up after taking it. It just depends on the person. Which of course you know. I also think we're just shoving pills down people's throats to shut them off emotionally and psychologically instead of dealing with the actual issues.
I have suggested therapy to you before. Since you major in that field (or something clearly adjacent to it) you again have more knowledge as to how that would help you than I would.
I think it's fantastic that you're starting to work out. It's hard to make yourself do something when all you want to do is sleep. But you have to make yourself. I know it sounds rather old fashioned, but hard work makes you feel good about yourself.
I don't want you to think you have to improve yourself in order to feel better. You don't. I just want you to know that I hear what you're saying and I wish I could fix it for you. If I could, I would. But I cannot. You can only wait until your situation changes due to you or other outside sources.
Just know that there's another person around that cares. Because I do.
Hope that wasn't too much blinding optimism in my post. ;-)
*hugs*
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