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some days i just dig up shit purposely to upset myself.
today it was questioning nick about whether this boy could not be interested in me because i'm fat.
and he's really so fabulous for making me feel terribly, because he has such a ridiculous perspective on things, and he totally just lets me have it whenever i ask for it. so on and on he goes about yeah blah blah guys dont like fat chicks etc etc. ok so i AM a fat chick and i have NO chance. awesome.
i'm so screwed.
lucky for me i have NO appetite lately and i get sick when i eat. but not lucky because i verge on fainting spells every day. I'M COOL!!!!!
but honestly. this is all bullshit. i just feel a little torn right now. i think it's just the night and what it does to me.