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Wow, its been awhile since I've used this; thats great!!! ^^
Funny too, it used to be a safety net, but it never really did anything but dig me deeper. Actually, I'm not sure why I'm writing on here except for boredom and the want to have some kind of contact with Andrea, considering we haven't talked since school let out, and her answering machine is apparently broken~ :p ~(its 303-6152 by the way)
Work is pretty hectic, between almost getting shot, having to call the cops on a few co-workers, and being threatened later by those same now officially former co-workers. The downside of the action is that now I have to work a lot more since there are very few keyholders at the store making me the only semi-intelligent person that has a key and the combination to the safe.
I'm pretty impressed with myself lately, at my mood in general. A year ago I would've been trapped in a circle of emo but I'm actually doing great despite the general disarray of my home life. Frisbee and guitar, frisbee and gutiar~ . . . oh . . . and I got a blue snakeskin jacket that looks oh so sexy on the new Eric, who is officially at 67 pounds and 9 inches lost on the waist, and satisified.
So anyways, the home life. Basically Richard fucked up everything again; the bankruptcy is going horribly, my mom has been living in racine with her friend leaving me to fend for myself, Richard is ditching for Florida in September leaving my mom and I with all of the debt and stuff, and they're foreclosing on the house. Oh, and my car broke down. Fuck. XD
Well, now I have an excuse to fix the Celica like I've wanted to. Go Toyotas. At least its got a sunroof, if not half of a paint job . . . Xp
But the foreclosure means my mom will be living in Racine for three months right around when school comes around and I will be vagrant for that time period if I wan't to keep attending Oak Creek. Eh. I'm sure I can find a place to stay. I'll probably go stay at Fleischman's since his sister is going to college and they'll have a room. We'll see, I'm not worried.
On the bright side, I found the college I want to go to, Berklee college of music in Boston. (http://www.berklee.edu/)
John Mayer and Steve Vai both graduated from there; its a contemporary music school which means the student body is 4,000 musicians, exclusively, and they teach the fundamentals of music while also teaching you to survive in todays pop culture while playing the popular styles, aka, rock. I win. My senior project would basically be me sending in a portfolio of my music to a producer and hopefully getting signed, how cool is that.
Anyways, I think I'm gonna hit the sack; Andrea, get in touch! Anna, if you'r reading this, sorry about all the idiocy after the concert, if you feel like getting in touch feel free, otherwise good luck with everything you do, you've still got tons of potential girl~
I'll leave you with some lyrics of mine that were inspired at 4 a.m. at George Webbs and written on the back of a menu. Yes, they're mildy emo/very angry and they don't really reflect on my mood as of late, but I think they're some of my better lyrics. Enjoy.
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Break Free
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I dont' know where you think you get off singing your songs about lonliness/You think we're the same but I know that you're wrong 'cause I'm still trying to live my life without regret/You said if friendship is forever than eternity's a lie/And I got sick of watching you throw it all away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again
I don't know why it took me so long to stop this spiral towards eptiness/You bringing me down was my cry all along/but it was all because of my own choices in the end/I can't believe that friendship through forever and eternity are lies/but I'm not going to throw myself away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again
I've watched the embers of my innocence burning at your feet/I've seen the shards of your ignorance tearing at our wings, but I was blind with eyes wide open/you said if friendship is forever than eternity's a lie/This was never real so go on and throw it all away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again
Funny too, it used to be a safety net, but it never really did anything but dig me deeper. Actually, I'm not sure why I'm writing on here except for boredom and the want to have some kind of contact with Andrea, considering we haven't talked since school let out, and her answering machine is apparently broken~ :p ~(its 303-6152 by the way)
Work is pretty hectic, between almost getting shot, having to call the cops on a few co-workers, and being threatened later by those same now officially former co-workers. The downside of the action is that now I have to work a lot more since there are very few keyholders at the store making me the only semi-intelligent person that has a key and the combination to the safe.
I'm pretty impressed with myself lately, at my mood in general. A year ago I would've been trapped in a circle of emo but I'm actually doing great despite the general disarray of my home life. Frisbee and guitar, frisbee and gutiar~ . . . oh . . . and I got a blue snakeskin jacket that looks oh so sexy on the new Eric, who is officially at 67 pounds and 9 inches lost on the waist, and satisified.
So anyways, the home life. Basically Richard fucked up everything again; the bankruptcy is going horribly, my mom has been living in racine with her friend leaving me to fend for myself, Richard is ditching for Florida in September leaving my mom and I with all of the debt and stuff, and they're foreclosing on the house. Oh, and my car broke down. Fuck. XD
Well, now I have an excuse to fix the Celica like I've wanted to. Go Toyotas. At least its got a sunroof, if not half of a paint job . . . Xp
But the foreclosure means my mom will be living in Racine for three months right around when school comes around and I will be vagrant for that time period if I wan't to keep attending Oak Creek. Eh. I'm sure I can find a place to stay. I'll probably go stay at Fleischman's since his sister is going to college and they'll have a room. We'll see, I'm not worried.
On the bright side, I found the college I want to go to, Berklee college of music in Boston. (http://www.berklee.edu/)
John Mayer and Steve Vai both graduated from there; its a contemporary music school which means the student body is 4,000 musicians, exclusively, and they teach the fundamentals of music while also teaching you to survive in todays pop culture while playing the popular styles, aka, rock. I win. My senior project would basically be me sending in a portfolio of my music to a producer and hopefully getting signed, how cool is that.
Anyways, I think I'm gonna hit the sack; Andrea, get in touch! Anna, if you'r reading this, sorry about all the idiocy after the concert, if you feel like getting in touch feel free, otherwise good luck with everything you do, you've still got tons of potential girl~
I'll leave you with some lyrics of mine that were inspired at 4 a.m. at George Webbs and written on the back of a menu. Yes, they're mildy emo/very angry and they don't really reflect on my mood as of late, but I think they're some of my better lyrics. Enjoy.
~~~~~
~~~~~
Break Free
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I dont' know where you think you get off singing your songs about lonliness/You think we're the same but I know that you're wrong 'cause I'm still trying to live my life without regret/You said if friendship is forever than eternity's a lie/And I got sick of watching you throw it all away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again
I don't know why it took me so long to stop this spiral towards eptiness/You bringing me down was my cry all along/but it was all because of my own choices in the end/I can't believe that friendship through forever and eternity are lies/but I'm not going to throw myself away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again
I've watched the embers of my innocence burning at your feet/I've seen the shards of your ignorance tearing at our wings, but I was blind with eyes wide open/you said if friendship is forever than eternity's a lie/This was never real so go on and throw it all away
This time I'm not coming down with you, I'm not going to settle for less than nothing/ This time I won't be there to catch you, you'll find yourself left with all that you are, less than nothing again