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the first time i saw him was only a five second glimpse as he did the airman's run.
his flight won warrior week, so they got to be the first group,
making it easier for me to spot him.
small miracles.
he looked so silly in his short shorts, with his shirt tucked in.
high socks and birth control glasses.
but i never in my life have had my heart literally stop like that.
there was my husband, the absolute love of my life,
and i haven't seen him in 55 days.
my knees buckled and my head started to spin,
but i kept my focus because they were coming around for a second lap and i would kill myself if i missed him.
he just looked so adorable. so fucking cute. i could not stand it.
after he ran by again, i let go and cried so hard that i was making noises and my chin was quivering.
it was a mess.
we had two hours to pass before the coin ceremony and i was going insane.
my mind could not do anything other than form the words "dettah" and "love".
we waited in the bleachers forever, and by the time they finally came into the pavilion,
i thought i was going to explode.
i watched him receive the airman's coin, which is really important and all,
but i was just praying for the ceremony to be over with.
the fact that he was only a few yards away from me made my entire body shake so hard that the woman next to me asked if i was ok.
i told her that was my husband right there!! and she laughed and understood
and held me until it was over.
ej carried me down the bleachers and told me to go find my husband.
even though everything was a blur, every single step still felt like an eternity.
and then i was standing in front of the most handsome creature that i've ever seen.
i screamed and hugged him and kissed him and i didn't plan on ever letting him go.
the look on his face made my heart absolutely melt,
and he let out this sigh of relief that i'm never going to forget.
the next thing that i really remember is being in the hotel room,
where we smiled and laughed
and he kissed me so hard that we fell back onto the bed and hurt our teeth.
it was perfect.
basically, this whole experience has taught me that i'm still twelve years old.
he still occupies every thought, wish, and dream that i have.
and i still love him in ways that i don't understand.