Sense of value...
I want my minnie mouse doll. I want to have a temper tantrum. I don't want to have knee surgery all over again. I'm mad. I'm mad all the time. I'm mad when I'm just sitting around laughing. I am not a happy camper. I watched the movie INTO THE WILD last night and that too pissed me off. Extremist piss me off. But oh it was filmed so beautifully that I'm sure it will win a bunch of fucking awards. Ridiculous...quanity vs quality (the script is shit but I bet I can make it look good). Writers upset me to the point of being mad and it makes me mad that when I write mediocre things everyone I know praises it like it's AMAZING! Like it's the next best thing. No wonder writers only do half of what they can do...people accept crap because we're dumb as hell now.
I just don't see a point in going to school.
I just don't see a point in having a career.
I just don't see a point in having a family.
I just don't see a point in falling in love.
I just don't see a point in hanging out.
I just don't see a point in partying.
I just don't see a point in drinking anymore.
I just don't see a point in traveling.
I just don't see a point in things anymore. I spend hours during the day trying to think of one person to reach out to. I scan my contacts list in my phone over and over - occasionally stopping on old friends names I should call him/her but what will I say after the initial hi...what's up....
I just don't have anything to say anymore.
I'm just not as fun as I used to be.
I'm just not as unique as when I faked it.
I just don't see what the point is...Because what I have to say to most of the people I talk to falls on deaf ears and the rest is just lubricant. I just want everything to go smoothly. Everything is overrated now. Everyone lies and tells everyone else what they want to hear. Society is dare I say...whack.
I'd rather be alone.
And not because I am so depressed or that I can't find a friend in the world...but because I feel alone with most of my friends these days anyways so why not skip the bullshit and go straight to the point.
FUCK~~
have a nice day.