Bitter *Locked from all his biological family*

[secondaryworld]

Since Freida had Cass I've really been trying hard to be less of a fucking misery. I think it's working. I don't know. Things have started to feel different. Not everything, but people don't react to me the same. I think I can be good at talking to people when I try to be

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[tattooedmisery]

Your father can be an incredibly difficult person to love.

But really, looking the way that you do, you wouldn't have any problem finding yourself a girl. So it's your fault, really. But ask your friends. I know it's a pride thing with guys. But seriously. Girls love playing match-maker. And they tend to hang out with girls that are like them. So find a girl you like that's taken, and ask her.

OOC: Technically, this shouldn't be possible for Sage at this point. But if Seihl was nearby, it could happen. My characters have a weird relation with their journals at the moment. But whatever! Bored with no journaling.

[secondaryworld]

"Can be an ncredibly difficult person to love" - talk about a fucking understatement.

I never had problems finding a girl. I've got Effy. Just because somebody cares about you doesn't mean it's simple, though. And it doesn't mean it's going to last.

[tattooedmisery]

There's never any guarantee that relationships are going to be simple or that they're going to last. That's why relationships are for men and women, not little boys and girls.

I think your mistake, then, is assuming that all of these relationships are easy. Or simple. I can't speak for most of the others, but mine and your father's relationship is anything but simple. Most of the time it's just clinging on for dear life.

[secondaryworld]

You don't have to tell me that things are fucking complicated and painful. And I've yet to see anything good that lasts. It has nothing to do with how mature I am.

I don't think that your relationship is simple. He's in it, so it's going to be fucking complicated. That's not what confuses me about it.

He's a bad fucking person. He shouldn't have anybody to love him. He doesn't deserve it.

The fact that anybody thinks differently - that's what confuses me. That's what pisses me off.

[tattooedmisery]

Ah.

Well, I could spin off some idealistic bullsh*t for you (sort of in the job description, really) but I think that the truth...when it comes to it...is the fact that he was there was I needed him.

[secondaryworld]

Yeah. He seems to be doing that for people lately. Acting the hero.

Wish he'd been even close to that when I was a kid. ...Or at least not the polar opposite to that.

[tattooedmisery]

I know. That part's not my place. It's none of my business, frankly. And people are perfectly within their rights to hate me for that.

...listen, would it be too weird if we got together and talked when your father wasn't around? It'd be nice to just...have someone to talk to. You could yell at me if you want. I'm a big girl, I can take it.

[secondaryworld]

...Yeah, sure. That would be kind of weird, but I'm willing to give it a shot.

I'll bail on you if it gets way too fucking uncomfortable, though.

[tattooedmisery]

Fair.

I'm not trying to convince you that your father is a hero, Ramirez. Far from it. If he ever does anything like that again, I'll be the first in line to kick his *ss. I've told him as much.

But he's been good to me. I can't understand his past, but I can give him a chance with me.