*Locked from everybody but Taro* Bullshit.
(Translated from the original Japanese)
Koga apologized, apparently. I don't care. I'm not looking for an apology or understanding from him or his 'love of his life'. I'm sick of that arrogant prick, and how easily things come to him. When he was cruel, he had everything he wanted. When he changed his mind and decided that he was kind and benevolent and under the reign of the mighty emperor Koga good times would, and in fact must, surely follow, he got everything he wanted. He was loved and forgiven and even got a certain amount of that worship he craves no matter what side of the fence he decides to place his precious feet. Spoiled from the day he was born. He took over his father's business so young, and he flourished. When I think about how hard I work and how that could never, will never, happen for me, it makes me sick. So I won't think of it.
Let me talk about Max.
Taro brought this ridiculous man to see me this summer. His name is Max, and he's from England, and his family is strange, and maybe dangerous. He's white, and his nose looks strange, and he has no job or money. My father would spit in my face if he met him. He calls himself my boyfriend. I guess he is. I don't really know what I'm doing with him. I kiss him sometimes, and he seems to like holding me. It feels strange, and kind of scary. My father always taught me that doing these things with anybody but my husband would be like giving my money to a homeless man - giving away my value to somebody who would abuse it anyway. But I like to be close to Max, even if it scares me, it's better than when he isn't there. And somehow Miko Hidaka keeps finding men who would consider having her, so I doubt that a couple of kisses will cause me to greatly depreciate.
Max tries his best to make me happy. He never whines or complains like Taro does. Everything he learns about me, he doesn't seem to mind at all. He even had that argument with Koga. He made Koga apologize, for me. I said I wanted to go to the beach, so he took me. When he asks me to dinner, he makes more than one reservation so whatever I want to go to, there will be a table. He even took me shopping and bought me some clothes. I feel like maybe he's spoiling me too much. It makes me wonder what he expects from me.
We're going back to that fair for some closing dance. I've picked my dress, and Taro promises that Koga and Dove will stay away from me and Max. Max asked me to stay with him after that, but I'm worried my father will actually do what he always threatens to and lock the door behind me if I'm gone too long. Even though my father and my brothers hate me, I want to be with them. Max is not worth losing them.
*UNLOCKED*
Fall begins today.
Koga, thank you for your apology.
Max and I went shopping today.
Taro, was it you who left the cat skull with a rose tied around it on my bedside table? You scared my best maid, I can't get her to come back into the room now.
Koga apologized, apparently. I don't care. I'm not looking for an apology or understanding from him or his 'love of his life'. I'm sick of that arrogant prick, and how easily things come to him. When he was cruel, he had everything he wanted. When he changed his mind and decided that he was kind and benevolent and under the reign of the mighty emperor Koga good times would, and in fact must, surely follow, he got everything he wanted. He was loved and forgiven and even got a certain amount of that worship he craves no matter what side of the fence he decides to place his precious feet. Spoiled from the day he was born. He took over his father's business so young, and he flourished. When I think about how hard I work and how that could never, will never, happen for me, it makes me sick. So I won't think of it.
Let me talk about Max.
Taro brought this ridiculous man to see me this summer. His name is Max, and he's from England, and his family is strange, and maybe dangerous. He's white, and his nose looks strange, and he has no job or money. My father would spit in my face if he met him. He calls himself my boyfriend. I guess he is. I don't really know what I'm doing with him. I kiss him sometimes, and he seems to like holding me. It feels strange, and kind of scary. My father always taught me that doing these things with anybody but my husband would be like giving my money to a homeless man - giving away my value to somebody who would abuse it anyway. But I like to be close to Max, even if it scares me, it's better than when he isn't there. And somehow Miko Hidaka keeps finding men who would consider having her, so I doubt that a couple of kisses will cause me to greatly depreciate.
Max tries his best to make me happy. He never whines or complains like Taro does. Everything he learns about me, he doesn't seem to mind at all. He even had that argument with Koga. He made Koga apologize, for me. I said I wanted to go to the beach, so he took me. When he asks me to dinner, he makes more than one reservation so whatever I want to go to, there will be a table. He even took me shopping and bought me some clothes. I feel like maybe he's spoiling me too much. It makes me wonder what he expects from me.
We're going back to that fair for some closing dance. I've picked my dress, and Taro promises that Koga and Dove will stay away from me and Max. Max asked me to stay with him after that, but I'm worried my father will actually do what he always threatens to and lock the door behind me if I'm gone too long. Even though my father and my brothers hate me, I want to be with them. Max is not worth losing them.
*UNLOCKED*
Fall begins today.
Koga, thank you for your apology.
Max and I went shopping today.
Taro, was it you who left the cat skull with a rose tied around it on my bedside table? You scared my best maid, I can't get her to come back into the room now.