Happy Birthday...
Casanova's two years old today. Holy hell.
It's kind of weird. I didn't expect to be around him at all, really, but here we are two years later and I visit him every other day. I'm actually 'dad' to him. I didn't think I'd be able to do that. Guess I'm a little stronger than I thought.
He's gotten really smart. Freaky smart. He's already running around and he talks like a normal kid twice his age. He kind of looks like me when I was a kid but Freida's genetic influence (eugh, that sounds like something my dad would say...) really shows too. He's kind of a momma's boy, though. He's figured out that if he gets into trouble he can put on his cute face and he'll get out of anything. How he's managing to get spoiled, being the youngest of eight, is beyond me.
I have a new half-sister, apparently. Dari wrote and told me how to contact her mom if I want to. I don't know what I would say, though. "So- you slept with my dad, huh? And had a baby? ...Huh. Aren't you like seven years younger than me? Do you realize how fucked up this is? Did you suffer a brain injury, is that why you were interested in my dad? Or is Dari just bullshitting me, and you're just some other girl he stole away?Are you like my mother? Do you secretly hate that baby, just for being my father's child?"
My family is so fucked up. Casanova's aunt is going to be two years younger than him. Almost 27 years younger than me. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I don't talk to any of them anyway. Dari keeps sending me letters- he better not be expecting me to write back...
It's kind of weird. I didn't expect to be around him at all, really, but here we are two years later and I visit him every other day. I'm actually 'dad' to him. I didn't think I'd be able to do that. Guess I'm a little stronger than I thought.
He's gotten really smart. Freaky smart. He's already running around and he talks like a normal kid twice his age. He kind of looks like me when I was a kid but Freida's genetic influence (eugh, that sounds like something my dad would say...) really shows too. He's kind of a momma's boy, though. He's figured out that if he gets into trouble he can put on his cute face and he'll get out of anything. How he's managing to get spoiled, being the youngest of eight, is beyond me.
I have a new half-sister, apparently. Dari wrote and told me how to contact her mom if I want to. I don't know what I would say, though. "So- you slept with my dad, huh? And had a baby? ...Huh. Aren't you like seven years younger than me? Do you realize how fucked up this is? Did you suffer a brain injury, is that why you were interested in my dad? Or is Dari just bullshitting me, and you're just some other girl he stole away?Are you like my mother? Do you secretly hate that baby, just for being my father's child?"
My family is so fucked up. Casanova's aunt is going to be two years younger than him. Almost 27 years younger than me. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I don't talk to any of them anyway. Dari keeps sending me letters- he better not be expecting me to write back...