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i wanted to go to the beach today.
but i had to go to work. lame.
closing night was amazing. the things my cast members and mister davis said to me were the first things in awhile to truly lift me up.
and we got a standing novation, which is always a good feeling.
the play may have been longer than my life, but i have no doubt that we put in our best, and people were constantly impressed with our hard work which was good to see. this is one thing i will miss.
i came home tonight from my dad's and there were flowers for me in my room. i guess casey dropped them off for me sometime earlier in the day. my mom looked at me tonight and said, "you know, he really likes you". i wish i had not treated him the way that i did, and perhaps the way that i still do. i wonder why lately it seems everyone has interest in me. i'm way too shitty for such attention. and if i'm really that great, i wish the one boy that actually means the world to me, would realize it. but he doesn't. and this is what i need to at last accept. maybe the second i can get him out of my mind, i can give others a fair chance.
i'm ready for tomorrow.
but i had to go to work. lame.
closing night was amazing. the things my cast members and mister davis said to me were the first things in awhile to truly lift me up.
and we got a standing novation, which is always a good feeling.
the play may have been longer than my life, but i have no doubt that we put in our best, and people were constantly impressed with our hard work which was good to see. this is one thing i will miss.
i came home tonight from my dad's and there were flowers for me in my room. i guess casey dropped them off for me sometime earlier in the day. my mom looked at me tonight and said, "you know, he really likes you". i wish i had not treated him the way that i did, and perhaps the way that i still do. i wonder why lately it seems everyone has interest in me. i'm way too shitty for such attention. and if i'm really that great, i wish the one boy that actually means the world to me, would realize it. but he doesn't. and this is what i need to at last accept. maybe the second i can get him out of my mind, i can give others a fair chance.
i'm ready for tomorrow.