If i hurt you than I'm sorry....
wow i am ready to cry, i am so swamped with everything i cant even take it...
i think that my teachers find it absolutly hysterical to make me want to kill myself...i have no idea where all this work is coming from and of course they pick my craziest weekend to dump it on..lovely...i have the retreat this weekend for dp and as soon as i get back from that i have confirmantion, which i might have to miss the beginning if we have play, as soon as we get home...
i feel like i am loosing touch with so many people but mostly myself...i dont know what is going on with anything and i am constantly out of it...its 8:25 and i got home at like 415 and have been doing homework since then (i took a few 5 min breaks hehe) and then yesterday i was at the library till 830 and its like whoot my fucken life is passig my by while i am working on damn mass to mass ratios in chemisty that i will never ever use in real life...there is so much out there for me to be doing...i want to expirence more of life and i want to be able to feel acomplished at the end of the day and feel like i have made a differnce, but mostly i want to be happy with me...
but i dont feel that way...
...please dont think that this was easy
i think that my teachers find it absolutly hysterical to make me want to kill myself...i have no idea where all this work is coming from and of course they pick my craziest weekend to dump it on..lovely...i have the retreat this weekend for dp and as soon as i get back from that i have confirmantion, which i might have to miss the beginning if we have play, as soon as we get home...
i feel like i am loosing touch with so many people but mostly myself...i dont know what is going on with anything and i am constantly out of it...its 8:25 and i got home at like 415 and have been doing homework since then (i took a few 5 min breaks hehe) and then yesterday i was at the library till 830 and its like whoot my fucken life is passig my by while i am working on damn mass to mass ratios in chemisty that i will never ever use in real life...there is so much out there for me to be doing...i want to expirence more of life and i want to be able to feel acomplished at the end of the day and feel like i have made a differnce, but mostly i want to be happy with me...
but i dont feel that way...
...please dont think that this was easy