tossing
Sometimes I think I couldn't be happier
other times i think I couldn't be more alone
All I want is some stability in my feelings
So i could know where I stand
and how to fix it, or maintain it.
two nights ago the rain was pouring down
it made me remember those sad slow lonely days
I would walk to the trailer alone and just sit
on that hard stump of wood
and watch the rain
watch the smoke
watch the trees
just sit in commplete silence
and observe everything.
I was so alone but so content for some clarity of thought.
Now those days are gone.
Two nights ago
I closed my eyes
and listened to the rain
and imagined I was home again
Only to open them later and realize
I wasn't home
I'm not going home
I don't have a home
other times i think I couldn't be more alone
All I want is some stability in my feelings
So i could know where I stand
and how to fix it, or maintain it.
two nights ago the rain was pouring down
it made me remember those sad slow lonely days
I would walk to the trailer alone and just sit
on that hard stump of wood
and watch the rain
watch the smoke
watch the trees
just sit in commplete silence
and observe everything.
I was so alone but so content for some clarity of thought.
Now those days are gone.
Two nights ago
I closed my eyes
and listened to the rain
and imagined I was home again
Only to open them later and realize
I wasn't home
I'm not going home
I don't have a home