I will save this empty space

[seckzie_steffy]

So right now part of me hates
myself. I shouldn't but I do. God why can't I just get over him? He is
just so fucking awesome and so cute. I love being around him. But
damnit I can't have him so why can't I just move on. I think about the
old days and how I wish they never had to end. You tell me not to hate
myself that its hard to get over people..Yeah, that is true, but it has
been to long I've help on for so long and I can't let go.

Last night was fun. I shouldn't
have drank so much but shit happens..Haha! I played in the rain with
Liz it was fun. I got all wet and cold..Ahhhhhhhhhh! Haha.Then we went
outside to hide and we talked it was fun.

Oh and I watched a
three hour wrestling dvd..Omg! I thought I was going to die..Thanks
Chuck! Haha! Mr we aren't going to watch the whole thing..WHATEVER! Now
I know not to believe you..Lol..

I went swimming tonight. It
would have been better if the damn pool wasn't so fucking cold. I mean
the hot tub wasn't even hot..Wtf?

Now I am jamming out to my Good
Charlotte Cd. It makes me happy. It's a great cd and I start dancing
and singing and all my problems go away.