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Sweet tobacco. It fills my lungs and returns that dizziness I came to enjoy so much in my youth. Breathe in and out the blue smoke and ahh, it returning to a lovers arms I tightly embrace every feeling and sensation. Love, I remember well. Ah. In and out. In and out. I am dizzy with shortness of breath and happiness. Ahh. It's return I relish more than I should. Guilt free for the first time in months. Sweet cigarettes you taunt me, kill me slowly. I do hope. I love. My hands shake and I welcome it. Each breath. How I turned my back on you I shall never know. I do not wish to escape you as you swirl around me. Spent butts in my ashtray and I smile. Saints be praised. I still taste it in the back of my throat, on my tongue, lightly coating my teeth. Still lightheaded. Forgive my foul and take me slow. I still wish of you for the same, selfish purposes as before. And finally, my other love has arrived online. I shall enjoy her company as much as yours, tobacco.