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Hey,
Well, I know it is late, but I just can't sleep... There are so many things going through my head; I can't make sense of it all...
Somethings just bother me I can't help it, some peolple, some things that happened in my life, some things that happened in other people's lives... They just bother me whenever I think about them its kind of like I just feel screaming "Why?" to the top of my lungs! I know life goes on, but there are just those wierd little things that I can't seem to move past and I don't understand why...
Sometimes I just sit and wonder if I have/ am making the right decisions for me... I don't want to be eighty and regretful of the life I didn't live... I know I am freaking out over the most stupid things... lol... I don't know why I over stress everything, its like my heart always tells me I am doing the right thing, but a tiny voice from the back of my head pops up saying, "Are you sure?" Maybe I have listened to my family telling me to try knew things and explore way too much... I mean if some one says something to you enough times sure its going to linger their for you to dwell upon, right? I just wish they would stay out of it and let me make my own decisions and be happy with them...
If everything could just click for me it would be, well, a miracle! I really need this vacation coming up, I just need a few days to be me!
Sorry about this entry guys, I know it was weird and went way over board on the rants, but you'll live, I promise!
Goodnight*
Sarah
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Baby,
I just wanted you to know that you are one of the m ost imporatant things in my life and every night I thank god for you and all that you do, without you I truly don't know where I would be. You saved me from myself and that means more than you will ever know! I know it has been hard, for both us, and I am very aware that I have made my mistakes, but I promise together we will make this last. I promise you that. I will never make you doubt me again. I love you with everything I have and so much more!
I love you!
03/08/04