For Tara 10-09-08
for Tara
It is hard for us to say goodbye
You and I were not as close as I would have liked
The timing when we met difficult
The time of your life just beginning
A period for the steel to be forged in the fire
With separations
Assault and then cancer
The dancer and witch that I heard of
Was not the Tara I got to know.
I was not the most compassionate of friends
Some disclosures were more than
I was capable of holding
Intimacies shared as part of your healing
Made me close up
No point in regretting it now
Goddess knows that I loved you
I believe you knew that too.
I am overjoyed that you are free, dear one,
You have time now to rest
To not have to deal with the world’s madness
You did more than your share as a healer.
After struggling
Through the suffering, the chemical poisoning
With the loss of basic mental and physical functions
Your spirit shone through it all.
My cowardice in facing that you had to leave
Cost me time with you
But I was gifted at the Equinox
To share a small bit of healing face to face.
You were so very beautiful and I told you so
I will always remember you looking at me
And asking “even now”?
Oh, yes.
No, your brain was not working
Your sense of what was now and what was then
Of people present and people remembered lost
It is true all of that was skewered
But you were the same being
Coming through loud and clear
Right through the broken bits.
I am glad your passing was gentle and easy
I rejoice that you were held in love
By those nearest and dearest to you
You deserved no less
It was all that we had to give you
It was your gift to us that we could.
Bon voyage sister
We will meet again.
It is hard for us to say goodbye
You and I were not as close as I would have liked
The timing when we met difficult
The time of your life just beginning
A period for the steel to be forged in the fire
With separations
Assault and then cancer
The dancer and witch that I heard of
Was not the Tara I got to know.
I was not the most compassionate of friends
Some disclosures were more than
I was capable of holding
Intimacies shared as part of your healing
Made me close up
No point in regretting it now
Goddess knows that I loved you
I believe you knew that too.
I am overjoyed that you are free, dear one,
You have time now to rest
To not have to deal with the world’s madness
You did more than your share as a healer.
After struggling
Through the suffering, the chemical poisoning
With the loss of basic mental and physical functions
Your spirit shone through it all.
My cowardice in facing that you had to leave
Cost me time with you
But I was gifted at the Equinox
To share a small bit of healing face to face.
You were so very beautiful and I told you so
I will always remember you looking at me
And asking “even now”?
Oh, yes.
No, your brain was not working
Your sense of what was now and what was then
Of people present and people remembered lost
It is true all of that was skewered
But you were the same being
Coming through loud and clear
Right through the broken bits.
I am glad your passing was gentle and easy
I rejoice that you were held in love
By those nearest and dearest to you
You deserved no less
It was all that we had to give you
It was your gift to us that we could.
Bon voyage sister
We will meet again.