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things are alot better now. my head is the same place as my heart. no more confusion and radical behavior.
well, while everyone is working their asses off in school, i am doing the opposite. first period i sit in the back of mrs. ritz's classroom, watching 9th graders not do their work and occasionally, i'll run some papers off for the teacher. 2nd period, i get to make stupid bullshit art for mrs. pilchard that has absolutely no depth at all and sit secluded from everyone else except this girl who talks to herself and has (seriously) a 2inch pinky nail that scrapes across the paper when shes drawing. for 2 periods straight, i say but 10 words. i dont go to lunch. instead i go to the library where i dont say a word to anybody at all as well.
the 2nd part of my day consists of going to vo tech to be with people who are immature and annoying as shit. 3rd period, pyschology which is a joke. i feel like i am in the kindergarten class of pyschology where all i do is copy down the bold type in the book and its definitions.
last period is graphic design where i have to be around 4 other people with no common sense, who are clueless and who think panda bears can speak to humans. i make signs for autoshops and people who run for county commissioners positions. i cuss, tell the teacher hes a jerk and tell everybody else how to do their jobs.
then i go home, look at porn, watch tv and then go to bed and wake up and do the whole thing over again.
it takes no effort at all in my day. none at all. and its getting ridiculous to be exact.
for some reason, i cant make time to see my friends, send them messages or talk to them on the phone.
im gaining alot of weight and im not doing a damn thing about it.
im not sure what it is.