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...you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist.
"I got your report card yesterday. Your grade point average dropped like 10 points you know?"
Yes, I know. I know. I know. I almost failed something this quarter. Can you fucking believe that? A 68. Holy fuck, I can barely even type that. God fucking damn it. I did so bad this quarter. I felt like I was losing it. I felt like shit. I didn't even give a fuck. And its gotten me into trouble. I can do it anymore. I can't lost myself like that. I don't know why- I just hated being in school. Seeing those people. Doing the bullshit work that I haven't even learned anything from. And the worse part is I don't have a good excuse or reason for it. I just fucked it all up.
I don't fucking know why I let it all go. I just did. And damn it, am I pissed at myself for it. I mean, how could I be that fucking stupid? I never let my grades go. Ever. And I just did. Without even thinking about it. Shit. Fuck.
I don't know. I'm in a really weird mood right now. I'm not quite sure how to explain it. I have decided that this year... well, I want to make this year my year. For myself. I know that's seriously super selfish and all, but I want to. I want to make myself happy this year. I just want to live my life the way that I want to. I want to make my decisions based on my reasons and the things that I want.
I guess I just want to live...
"Let Go" by Frou Frou
Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So, let go,let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, l-let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
In the breakdown
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
The breakdown
So amazing here
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
"I got your report card yesterday. Your grade point average dropped like 10 points you know?"
Yes, I know. I know. I know. I almost failed something this quarter. Can you fucking believe that? A 68. Holy fuck, I can barely even type that. God fucking damn it. I did so bad this quarter. I felt like I was losing it. I felt like shit. I didn't even give a fuck. And its gotten me into trouble. I can do it anymore. I can't lost myself like that. I don't know why- I just hated being in school. Seeing those people. Doing the bullshit work that I haven't even learned anything from. And the worse part is I don't have a good excuse or reason for it. I just fucked it all up.
I don't fucking know why I let it all go. I just did. And damn it, am I pissed at myself for it. I mean, how could I be that fucking stupid? I never let my grades go. Ever. And I just did. Without even thinking about it. Shit. Fuck.
I don't know. I'm in a really weird mood right now. I'm not quite sure how to explain it. I have decided that this year... well, I want to make this year my year. For myself. I know that's seriously super selfish and all, but I want to. I want to make myself happy this year. I just want to live my life the way that I want to. I want to make my decisions based on my reasons and the things that I want.
I guess I just want to live...
"Let Go" by Frou Frou
Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So, let go,let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, l-let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
In the breakdown
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
The breakdown
So amazing here
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown