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I can't do this anymore. When the people that I trust are the ones that make me feel like I'm nothing, I don't know what else to do. I don't understand.
There are so many things that I can turn to, that I want to turn to. I know they won't make things any better besides making me feel okay for a little bit. I just want to feel okay. Everything is falling to pieces right in front of my eyes. I'm afraid that I won't be able to get through this one. I don't think I can do this again. I mean, I did it before. I got through it and I put myself back together and tried to fix myself as best as I could. But, there were still cracks and fault lines that were apparent. And now its back to square one and I don't want to put myself back together. I want to let myself fall apart and just leave it like that. I don't care anymore. I have no feelings that push me back towards sanity, everything sends me fleeing from it.
I want this all to be over with.
There are so many things that I can turn to, that I want to turn to. I know they won't make things any better besides making me feel okay for a little bit. I just want to feel okay. Everything is falling to pieces right in front of my eyes. I'm afraid that I won't be able to get through this one. I don't think I can do this again. I mean, I did it before. I got through it and I put myself back together and tried to fix myself as best as I could. But, there were still cracks and fault lines that were apparent. And now its back to square one and I don't want to put myself back together. I want to let myself fall apart and just leave it like that. I don't care anymore. I have no feelings that push me back towards sanity, everything sends me fleeing from it.
I want this all to be over with.