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[seasleep]

lying in bed trying to fall asleep for two hours before returning to work at midnight, i get up, grab pen & paper, felt it urgent to write down every name of every death i've seen so far- those that i can remember. maybe in this, i'll expell some of the exhaust i've been inhaling. there is too much dust on my hands these days, i'm getting worn enough to stop feeling needles till they're already gone.

and i'll arrive tonight, i'll do all i can & just hope that i'm helping- hope that something holds on for me. i'll never know if i've saved anyone.