happy birthday
tomorrow i'll be 25 years old. i remember counting down to turning 16, 18, 21 ... and then it all kind of runs together after that. yesterday at work a customer told me i should go places and try to get carded just so i could say i'm 25. that was more fun when i was 21 for like two seconds and then it got old considering i get carded ALL the time.
yesterday was the last day of summer school. holy crap did that go by quick. i think all classes should be four weeks long. we could really get things moving along if that was the case. my professor was super-cool and i have him next semester too. dude, learning is so fun! i am really loving school. it makes me feel accomplished and gives me confidence that i can achieve the things i set forth to do. i finally feel focused and capable. and now i'm not proving it to anyone else but myself and that should be easy because most of the time i'm a big fan of myself. honestly, loathing in self-pity never will be beneficial or fun, so that's old news.
the girls at work yesterday did it up real nice for me. i was totally surprised because i have today off with pay (woohoo!) and didn't even think about it. rose had a hello kitty balloon by my computer and a beautiful rattan planter with awesome low-light plants ... dark greens and purples, and a few small flowering plants that she recommended i relocate after a while. so that's a bonus! we're really getting into the plant thing ... i think we're making up for not having any pets in some strange subconscious way. nancy got me two gerber daisy plants - one red and one white. i'm going to put those out front in the planter with the others. they seem to be liking it out there. paris got me a beautiful candle-holder that matches our bathroom perfectly. it was really sweet. i decided to order out lunch with nancy and paris (nancy loves to order out and i've been bringing my delicious lean cuisines instead and she's been bummed) so we got bennigans for old times sake. rose - the amazing cook that she is - made south beach friendly fruit parfaits for everyone, even one for me to bring home for joshie.
joshie and geo hooked me up last weekend big-time. we went to abuelo's for dinner and to bed bath & beyond to pick out our new bedset! i really wanted something that joshie and i could both enjoy and not something frivilous just because it was my birthday. it's all white and down and sooo snuggy! josh even picked out a dust ruffle with eyelet detail! adorable! i also got a griddle and two throw pillows, so i am officially an old lady.
my sister came into work yesterday and surprised me with a pearl ring and necklace! the ring is set kind of like my mom's wedding ring was set, so dainty and beautiful. it's weird, i'm not used to having a sister and it's sometimes overwhelming that someone could come into my life and care about me the way she does. we are definitely sisters, and that is comforting to have.
i'm thankful for a lot right now, especially my mom. she's strong in a way that i can only hope to eventually be, and she is unconditional and loving and amazing. i feel sad that we are away from each other and that i sometimes push her away. i don't know if it's because i feel guilty or responsible for something, but i just wish i didn't feel that way. i think i just want to feel okay about the past and some of the crap i put her through. i wish i realized then what i know now about my mom - that she is like no one else on the face of this earth, and without her i wouldn't be who i am today.
yesterday was the last day of summer school. holy crap did that go by quick. i think all classes should be four weeks long. we could really get things moving along if that was the case. my professor was super-cool and i have him next semester too. dude, learning is so fun! i am really loving school. it makes me feel accomplished and gives me confidence that i can achieve the things i set forth to do. i finally feel focused and capable. and now i'm not proving it to anyone else but myself and that should be easy because most of the time i'm a big fan of myself. honestly, loathing in self-pity never will be beneficial or fun, so that's old news.
the girls at work yesterday did it up real nice for me. i was totally surprised because i have today off with pay (woohoo!) and didn't even think about it. rose had a hello kitty balloon by my computer and a beautiful rattan planter with awesome low-light plants ... dark greens and purples, and a few small flowering plants that she recommended i relocate after a while. so that's a bonus! we're really getting into the plant thing ... i think we're making up for not having any pets in some strange subconscious way. nancy got me two gerber daisy plants - one red and one white. i'm going to put those out front in the planter with the others. they seem to be liking it out there. paris got me a beautiful candle-holder that matches our bathroom perfectly. it was really sweet. i decided to order out lunch with nancy and paris (nancy loves to order out and i've been bringing my delicious lean cuisines instead and she's been bummed) so we got bennigans for old times sake. rose - the amazing cook that she is - made south beach friendly fruit parfaits for everyone, even one for me to bring home for joshie.
joshie and geo hooked me up last weekend big-time. we went to abuelo's for dinner and to bed bath & beyond to pick out our new bedset! i really wanted something that joshie and i could both enjoy and not something frivilous just because it was my birthday. it's all white and down and sooo snuggy! josh even picked out a dust ruffle with eyelet detail! adorable! i also got a griddle and two throw pillows, so i am officially an old lady.
my sister came into work yesterday and surprised me with a pearl ring and necklace! the ring is set kind of like my mom's wedding ring was set, so dainty and beautiful. it's weird, i'm not used to having a sister and it's sometimes overwhelming that someone could come into my life and care about me the way she does. we are definitely sisters, and that is comforting to have.
i'm thankful for a lot right now, especially my mom. she's strong in a way that i can only hope to eventually be, and she is unconditional and loving and amazing. i feel sad that we are away from each other and that i sometimes push her away. i don't know if it's because i feel guilty or responsible for something, but i just wish i didn't feel that way. i think i just want to feel okay about the past and some of the crap i put her through. i wish i realized then what i know now about my mom - that she is like no one else on the face of this earth, and without her i wouldn't be who i am today.