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where are you going
Originally uploaded by mylittleseapony stress stress stress.
lazy lazy lazy lazy.
life life life life.
things things things.
a mix of:
scheduling classes.
applying to mica.
getting a portfolio.
finding a paying art job.
getting a car.
doing school work.
i'm not ready for the change of seasons.
that means things are due.
and other things will change.
responsibly. i'm not ready, still.
chris actaully, officially got an apartment
so so so so excited.
he moves-in in July.
i can't even explain how amazing that is.
but for me,
i still am not ready for life.
i need to make myself known for my art.
as an artist.
im going to be 20, i can't keep putting things off.
i want to create and get out.
but damn this 10x30 foot cement box.
so lazy.
so trapped.
I DONT WANT TO BE LAZY ANY MORE. I WANT TO CREATE ART. I WANT PEOPLE TO COME TO ME ASKING ME TO DESIGN THINGS ( i do, but..) I WANT TO GET PAID TO DO IT. I DONT WANT TO BE IN TOWSON. I WANT TO BE IN A CREATIVE PLACE. I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING OF MYSELF. I WANT TO BE SELFISH. I WANT TO MAKE MONEY OFF DOING WHAT I LOVE. SO I CAN HAVE A CAR, A HOUSE, NEW CLOTHES, SPENDING MONEY. I DONT WANT TO BE POOR ANYMORE.
I WANT TO GET OUT.
now.