i'm starting to feel better
It's been one week now since i've started with the medication. Patrick and i have self medicated me and i feel very fine with that. He knows a whole bunch about pills, period.
My self-made commercial: "I'm taking a Stab at getting Stable with Stablon!"
So. I'm taking 12.5 mg every evening along side with 100mg of 5-HTP. And then another 5-HTP in the morning with a prenatal vitamin. Nope, not pregnant, nor are we trying it's just a good pill for my age and hey! i had some leftover! As needed i add in B-12s.
As soon as our new shipment comes in from europe, i'll be upping my dose of stablon to 12.5 mg two times a day.
Hope this works. I've got to get a grip. I've always been so against "pills".
Sure i take them, but i hate the idea of relying on them.
I'm going to be a bitch when i get old. Feel sorry for my caretaker (hope i have one!) that has to give me my million pills every day. I see the amount of pills old people take!
I digress.
Anyway. I'm feeling fine with the idea of "needing" to take a pill to help me out a little. Something has got to give. This is no way to lead my life and no way for my son to learn to lead his life...freaking out over the little things. Patrick sure doesn't deserve the drama.
Whew.
Breathe.
Last night i realized that I haven't cried for a few days!
That's huge, sorry as that sounds!
I've been a little more patient with jack's 2 year old behavior, I'm starting to have more of a natural smile state of mouth rather than the frown mouth that i've been wearing. So that feels good.
We're doing well with jack up in his own room. My little boy. First his own bed, now his own room -upstairs. I'm missing my baby boy -but not wanting another.
We've been dancing him to sleep his whole life. He needs to learn how on his own.
Life. Also he's getting too heavy man!
He really likes the break beats that Patrick has introduced him to. He seems to dig the bass. So anyway.
We have him lay in his bed and we read a couple stories. We rub his back and make sure he's asleep before we leave.
It takes close to 2 hours - hopefully the time will get shorter and shorter. I know this sounds obvious, put him in his bed, read books and rub...duh. We would read the stories in bed and all that, but then get up to dance. whatever. If we are ever to do this whole thing again - i sure hope i remember things like this.
These lessons.
Anyway. I'm tired. I think i heard P move to his computer, Jack must be asleep.
I had nap and night time last time so P got nap and night time tonight. Fair enough!
I'm going to go see if we can watch some pirated It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia on his computer.
It's funny.
See....i can actually feel funny! yay!
My self-made commercial: "I'm taking a Stab at getting Stable with Stablon!"
So. I'm taking 12.5 mg every evening along side with 100mg of 5-HTP. And then another 5-HTP in the morning with a prenatal vitamin. Nope, not pregnant, nor are we trying it's just a good pill for my age and hey! i had some leftover! As needed i add in B-12s.
As soon as our new shipment comes in from europe, i'll be upping my dose of stablon to 12.5 mg two times a day.
Hope this works. I've got to get a grip. I've always been so against "pills".
Sure i take them, but i hate the idea of relying on them.
I'm going to be a bitch when i get old. Feel sorry for my caretaker (hope i have one!) that has to give me my million pills every day. I see the amount of pills old people take!
I digress.
Anyway. I'm feeling fine with the idea of "needing" to take a pill to help me out a little. Something has got to give. This is no way to lead my life and no way for my son to learn to lead his life...freaking out over the little things. Patrick sure doesn't deserve the drama.
Whew.
Breathe.
Last night i realized that I haven't cried for a few days!
That's huge, sorry as that sounds!
I've been a little more patient with jack's 2 year old behavior, I'm starting to have more of a natural smile state of mouth rather than the frown mouth that i've been wearing. So that feels good.
We're doing well with jack up in his own room. My little boy. First his own bed, now his own room -upstairs. I'm missing my baby boy -but not wanting another.
We've been dancing him to sleep his whole life. He needs to learn how on his own.
Life. Also he's getting too heavy man!
He really likes the break beats that Patrick has introduced him to. He seems to dig the bass. So anyway.
We have him lay in his bed and we read a couple stories. We rub his back and make sure he's asleep before we leave.
It takes close to 2 hours - hopefully the time will get shorter and shorter. I know this sounds obvious, put him in his bed, read books and rub...duh. We would read the stories in bed and all that, but then get up to dance. whatever. If we are ever to do this whole thing again - i sure hope i remember things like this.
These lessons.
Anyway. I'm tired. I think i heard P move to his computer, Jack must be asleep.
I had nap and night time last time so P got nap and night time tonight. Fair enough!
I'm going to go see if we can watch some pirated It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia on his computer.
It's funny.
See....i can actually feel funny! yay!