i am so paranoid.
i can't believe him. he hasn't even called. i'm burning his christmas presents in the incinerator. why does he have to do this to me? seeems... as if the tables have turned i s'pose. i should stand up to him, but I KNOW i don't have the guts. He just looks at me and i can't be mad at him. However, its been like this the past three days and bottom line, i'm fed up. I've been slouching around in my robe and slippers for hours now... JUST WAITING. I have a perfectly good offer (perfectly awesome) to go hang out with e.z., amanda, and kady and perhaps clare...and I want to go but i know i won't, because I told him I'd hang out with him today and he said he'd call. DOESN"T HE REMEMBER THAT I'M LEAVING TOMORROW?? How could he care so little when I care so much? I want to just go out with the girls and get this off my mind but I know that I'd be thinking about him the whole time and I'd be no fun to be around. Why in the hell can't he show any consideration for me? I'm not the kind of girl to follow my boyfriend and like desperately cling to him. BUT I mean, I already caved. I've called him only A BILLION times. (5) and I'm starting to believe that he doesn't want to talk to me. I never thought this was going to happen. Could it have anything to do with his brother? I gotta go wash myself I feel like such a friggin bum.