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I feel like I keep reposting the same thing, but wording it differently. Is that weird?
Also, Brandon made me think... Bright Eyes.... "I want a lover I don't have to love..." It never works that way. Which throws a wrench in things when you're trying very hard not to feel anything. Just saying.
I am in dire need of someone to smack me into sense. Come on, anyone? It's probably just as well, if no one hits me. Does anyone remember the amazing relationship that sort of happened before Cornell? It's weird with him again. People keep asking why we don't just go out. With the exception of the one guy who is always at the back of my mind, but doesn't love me, there isn't really a reason not to. When a drunken friend broached the subject, I said that we had tried that and it didn't work. Then amazing guy looked at me and said, "That was just the distance"... and I told him how scared I had been that we would ruin a fantastic friendship. That was the last time we talked about anything "like that."
I'm not doing so bueno, mood-wise. I want a hug, from a warm, smell-good person. Too bad the one I'm talking about is working. I also want the heat to work for the second floor of our house. That would be stupendous.
Also, Brandon made me think... Bright Eyes.... "I want a lover I don't have to love..." It never works that way. Which throws a wrench in things when you're trying very hard not to feel anything. Just saying.
I am in dire need of someone to smack me into sense. Come on, anyone? It's probably just as well, if no one hits me. Does anyone remember the amazing relationship that sort of happened before Cornell? It's weird with him again. People keep asking why we don't just go out. With the exception of the one guy who is always at the back of my mind, but doesn't love me, there isn't really a reason not to. When a drunken friend broached the subject, I said that we had tried that and it didn't work. Then amazing guy looked at me and said, "That was just the distance"... and I told him how scared I had been that we would ruin a fantastic friendship. That was the last time we talked about anything "like that."
I'm not doing so bueno, mood-wise. I want a hug, from a warm, smell-good person. Too bad the one I'm talking about is working. I also want the heat to work for the second floor of our house. That would be stupendous.