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I act more like I'm in high school than I ever did when I was actually IN high school.
Last thing was hand exploration.
Last night, after we both separately watched the presentation of "Dark Side of the Rainbow," we separately did whatever. Then we got online, and ended up talking as we both were bored, like usual.
First, he suggested I do a Sudoku puzzle. Then he suggested I go "chill" over there (meaning his room). I ignored that, as it is chilly. He acknowledges the fact that he very evidently flirts with me, but hopes he does it with more "finesse" than the 16 year old I was also talking to. When he laughs at something that was meant as to be serious, he wants to make up for it.... I couldn't decide on anything, so I said "Chocolate." He wanted me to come over and get the chocolate, which wasn't happening. Later, I said I was cold. After suggesting I grab a blanket, he said "...or you could just find someone to cuddle up with."
Shit. Shit. Shit.
I told him that cuddling never ends well, as it rarely stays just cuddling. He said that he knows how to stay under control. I said I didn't know him well enough to put myself in that situation. He said "fair enough." I thanked him for not being as pushy as nearly every other guy in my life.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Then he told me how he tries to be one of the good guys, and I said.. "hmm... that's odd, as I seem to draw out the bad guys." Then he mentioned his tendency to draw out "crazy. not like fun crazy. like your honor, we the jury find the defendant crazy" crazy.
I hate that I really really like this guy. A lot. I hate that he slept with my friend while under the influence, and that he creeped her out. And that despite the fact that I know this, I still really really like him.
Shit. Shit. Shit. DAMN.
Last thing was hand exploration.
Last night, after we both separately watched the presentation of "Dark Side of the Rainbow," we separately did whatever. Then we got online, and ended up talking as we both were bored, like usual.
First, he suggested I do a Sudoku puzzle. Then he suggested I go "chill" over there (meaning his room). I ignored that, as it is chilly. He acknowledges the fact that he very evidently flirts with me, but hopes he does it with more "finesse" than the 16 year old I was also talking to. When he laughs at something that was meant as to be serious, he wants to make up for it.... I couldn't decide on anything, so I said "Chocolate." He wanted me to come over and get the chocolate, which wasn't happening. Later, I said I was cold. After suggesting I grab a blanket, he said "...or you could just find someone to cuddle up with."
Shit. Shit. Shit.
I told him that cuddling never ends well, as it rarely stays just cuddling. He said that he knows how to stay under control. I said I didn't know him well enough to put myself in that situation. He said "fair enough." I thanked him for not being as pushy as nearly every other guy in my life.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Then he told me how he tries to be one of the good guys, and I said.. "hmm... that's odd, as I seem to draw out the bad guys." Then he mentioned his tendency to draw out "crazy. not like fun crazy. like your honor, we the jury find the defendant crazy" crazy.
I hate that I really really like this guy. A lot. I hate that he slept with my friend while under the influence, and that he creeped her out. And that despite the fact that I know this, I still really really like him.
Shit. Shit. Shit. DAMN.