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I swore off relationships. Now I want one... with someone who, until very recently, was a total ass.
Now I'm not so sure... He held me until I fell asleep, and when I woke up scared because I forgot where I was (I was sober, but having a bad dream) he wrapped his arms around me until I fell back asleep. And when I woke up at first to leave, he held me 'til I changed my mind.
The "relationship" I "don't want" is confusing. And impossible. And... there are a million reasons for it not to develop into anything.
And it probably won't, but it was nice to feel someone next to me... It was warm and safe and comfortable and amazing.
Shit. I keep forgetting to remember I don't need a guy. Whoops.
Now I'm not so sure... He held me until I fell asleep, and when I woke up scared because I forgot where I was (I was sober, but having a bad dream) he wrapped his arms around me until I fell back asleep. And when I woke up at first to leave, he held me 'til I changed my mind.
The "relationship" I "don't want" is confusing. And impossible. And... there are a million reasons for it not to develop into anything.
And it probably won't, but it was nice to feel someone next to me... It was warm and safe and comfortable and amazing.
Shit. I keep forgetting to remember I don't need a guy. Whoops.